Saturday, April 29, 2017

Good Morning Sunshine...

Such a lovely dream... As stated earlier, my dreams are full of drama... It was having a young couple who were shooting for a lovestory movie (love, romance), son, parents (family), coworkers and neighbors (drama).... And Off course myself...
Oh my God... I was actually... It was so lovely... the understanding that we didn't had to speak anything... It was comparison sort of thing may be...  The young heroin who was shooting for that movie, was my neighbor and would come and tell me her feelings about the hero... I was her Love Guru sort of thing in the dream...  I would suggest her somethings... and... oh my God... It was so lovely... that I actually slept again after waking up to continue it and oh God... I was too late to wake up... Oh no... I don't want real life drama now...all my morning tasks are pending...  But anyway, it was so good.. Sometimes you just don't have to speak your feelings to the person you are close to... They just understand it... and no other people understand the "logic" behind it... :)
By the way, sometime back, I had read in some motivational book that the way you save someone's phone number in your mobile has its impact in your life... You know, something like whole world and stars make it happen or something.... So, the way I saved somebody's number in my cell had actually made him that in my dream... :) Vow.. so nice...

Today morning would had to be like this... It was meant to be lovely dream... And in my dreams, I have came to you a thousand times...In my dreams I have cared for you a thousand times...I many times see you pass my door..... Hellooo.... It's me you looking for.... I can see it in your eyes... I can see it in your smile..

Good Morning World... I am not sure, when will be I able to post my next post on this blog now... Till the time, Love your Loved Ones, Express Your Love,  Life is very short, don't waste it on hate and ego and anger and stupid fights....Have a Lovely Time...

Friday, April 28, 2017

Aaj Mai Khush Hu, lo Tum hi bolo Mai hu Khush kyu

I am feeling just happy today and I don't even know the reason... I mean not any specific reason... I am feeling very relaxed... lighter... like a free bird... not actually free bird... don't know.. and I am just happy... I don't have the words for my feeling yaar... I was chatting the same with my colleague too.. I am actually hungry but I am feeling so good that I am not going to get up from my bed to even get some food or drink milk and he was like just think that you had your dinner and you will feel full. Seriously, I meet with all crazy people...Anyway, I just want to live this moment. I don't know actually the reason of this "feel good" feeling. May be because I will see my son tomorrow. He was not with me for this whole week.... or may be I am all set for vacation mood ...but no that may not be the reason because I have started missing everything already... You know that feeling when you just leave your special someone and just turn and you already start missing them...Same feeling for work may be...I actually stayed up late today at work finishing some tasks that I actually could have postponed....  or may be the fact that I was appreciated for something good at my workplace in a way that I actually wanted ... well not exactly the same way but dont know... or may be ...someone actually did care for me... oh... I don't know...

Okay, now will you please come down to earth from your dreamy land? First, whenever you feel such happy, you get so much pain later so no... and as per historical data... the happy feeling you are having today will be just reversed by the same people you are feeling happy because of. So, hold on. People never understand feelings.... so never show them to anyone.

Come on ... I am going for another life risking adventure tomorrow and you don't know future.. At least let me enjoy today...

\

Hey, I had never seen video for this song earlier.. though I used listen/sing it a lot. Jaicky Shroff is really good in few movies... I really liked him in that one with Kajol...

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Baat bane to thik varna Zid pe Adiyo na...

I was listening to the "Love is waste of Time" playlist on gaana.com, couple of days ago and I stopped by this song. I remembered when this song was released I liked the concept of "Never ever love any one" but this line I disliked.. It was "Baat bane to thik varna zid pe adiyo na". That time, I was like, why not? If something is not happening, we should not just leave it like a loser. We should be like stubborn, should chase it till we get success. Off course, I was teenager, not matured.
Well, video also was not appropriate to watch that age so I never saw this song again.



After so many years, when I listen this song I understand it now. It's about love. You can't force someone to love you. You may be loving someone to the moon and back but it doesn't mean the other person should love you the same way. You just can't force it to someone. You can't change anyone's feelings. Before taking major decisions in life, my philosophy was this only. I may love someone by all my heart but if I don't get it back in return, I don't get that respect I deserve in return, I can do nothing about it. I am not chasing that person saying one day he will change. One day he will love me the way I do. Off course, one day he will.  I have seen many women who proudly tell that they got the respect they deserved after 30 years. Comeon, what's the use if someone value you  and your love after 30-40 years of living together. I don't know, may be this is my generation speaking this up. But yes, my generation too tries. It's not like that we don't try. We try too for years. But offcourse we can't wait for 30 years trying only. You should just let go of the thing, the person. You just cant force this thing called love and respect to anyone... and if you force... it doesn't last long.  :( May be my generation needs more expressing of love which earlier generation didn't need. We need may be acknowledging, appreciating on constant regular basis in relationships while this was not something which our mothers needed.  

Well, I don't know.... I am just writing this... and I don't have actually time to write or even think more about this or write about this. I am busy preparing for one important professional thing tomorrow. I just took a break and listened the playlist again on gaana.com and felt to share this. At this moment I am in the mood of "Love is waste of time... " and I know myself...  :)

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Happiness is sleeping for 2 weeks...

Happiness is as soon as you enter home after long tiring day, going to bed in your shoes.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Apni Kabhi to Kabhi Ajnabee....




 

Father-Daughter and Mother-Son Relationships....

After this morning's pigeon kid event, I was bit upset already and had nothing in mind. I had not even looked at my To-Do list single time. I was just doing the things without any heart. My son when got to know the incident, he was also emotional. We did spend today just together doing many things. It was like just two of us in the world. I took him to shopping as well. Did lots of shopping for him. How much I was emotional that can be guessed with the fact that I myself gave him a chocolate candy. He too was surprised.

Flashback : When I would come home from my college hostel for holiday, I would return to hostel in the morning. There was a superfast express train early in the morning which would take me to my destination in few hours. My father would wake up to drop me to the railway station. He would not speak anything but I knew his feeling. I would observe him. His eyes would be like:

Bus yahi soch ke raaton ko mai nahi sota...
Nind aai to tera khwaab chala aayega...
Fir subah jab khulengi aankhe meri...
Tu bhi subah ko sitare sa chala jaayega....

I have exact same feeling today... My son and I  were like...

Is ek pal to ji le jara... ye lamhe fir mile na mile...
Fir kya ho kya khabar, dekha hai kisne kal...
Aajka din rok le, fir ho na jaaye sahar...

Please God... give me strength... You know what we  mother-son wish and you know what is the best. Let me be ready for all the scenarios.
 

Healthy Eating and Healthy Life Style Challenge - Weekly Update

Alright, so eating part was good. I did well for clean eating but the workout part was failed totally... More than 5 days missed for sun salutation... However, I had started with the dance so I think that should be taken care of. After today's weight check, it's the same again... no loss, no gain...

I couldn't save it....

The saddest morning. I was sleeping when around 3.40am now I heard a strange voice.  I got up and went to source of sound - window. It was sound of pigeon kid. I can't forget the sight. There was a cat and the pigeon kid was in her mouth. Oh my God, oh my God, I took a container kept in window to shuussh cat but she jumped with pigeon in her mouth on the roof of different house and ran away. It was so quick. I couldn't save my pigeon kid. I saw it last time. It was his voice to struggle for his life. Why I didn't get up earlier? I could save it. That pigeon kid was having faith in me. It had that feeling that I would be saving it. God, if you didn't let me save it, why did you wake me up? To make me sad? You know, I can't forget this now for days. I understand now the disappearance of the first pigeon child. God, it was just a kid. You made me guilty of not being able to save its life. and how the hail that cat came here? How is it possible for a cat to climb this height? I know, I know... don't give me logical reasoning. I am really sorry beta... I am so so sorry... and I am feeling so so guilty... I am sorry... I couldn't save you....

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Meri Duniya me Aake...

Tum bin... Movie was good and whole album was my favorite... I have listened to it thousands of times may be...


By the way, this is something different style of Sonu Nigam.  

Dealing with Bad Guys

Since I already mentioned about "Bad Guys" in my last post, I thought to take this up. I always write here that "I am so lucky that I only meet good people wherever I go" . Yes, that's 100% correct. But in real world actually I had encountered bad people as well... just to get something good out of it too.... good lessons... or being stronger... So from the time I am sharing is my college time where I had actually with my gang of girls group did hit the guys who were teasing girls.... On road gathered so many people to beat someone. I have also did fights in the train with bad guys while doing "up-down" in trains and in buses.
Gradually, I become mature enough to understand when to ignore and when is the "real issue". Just this month, when I was filling fuel at fuel station, one boy did sing a song on "eyes" looking at me. I was fully covered in clothes and jacket and scarf and only eyes were visible. I chose to ignore. It happens many times. You need to ignore and at many times you just can't fight each time.

It is said that when you leave your safe home, you get into the real world, you have to face such situations and yes you have to. You need to learn to deal with it. In my initial stages of career I had a coworker who once misbehaved with me. I was younger and I complained regarding him in my office. After some verification, that person was fired from company for this reason. Later he met me personally requesting he had a family and home to feed and I should take my complaint back. Well, I couldn't do anything then. Next time such thing happened, I decided not to complain in the office and handled it my way. The result of this is the person and me have such an awkward relationship till date that even though I smile and talk to the coworker may be professionally on some issue, the person don't talk. I tried to forget but he is not ready to forget the incident and move on.
Then we had a senior member who would stare the breasts of girls while talking to them. We just used to become uncomfortable. Thankfully, I don't have to work with him much so it was just some times for me. But when asking how to deal with him to one of my colleague friend who had to extensively work with him, her response was "simply ignore. He stares at breasts unintentionally, unknowingly and innocently." Seriously? how can someone stare at women's breasts innocently? That was not just a look... that was stare... actual stare...
Anyway, in another incident, when I handled a misbehaving at workplace in my way, the person got furious...mixed of emotions may be...started ill-speaking about me. I cleared things with him directly on this as well. He is just confused person... At one time he will be speaking bad about me in public while at some times would act as silent lover kind of thing...Some times he would flirt, try to impress and he would use any cheesy lines...Your water bottle color is red, mine water bottle color is red... Color of love is red... I simply answer... "you know what, when I will slap you again, the color of your cheeks will also be red". I do compare him with my son so that he gets hint.
Anyway, so moral of the story, if you are a girl, you have to deal with "bad guys"... Learn self defense... I had learnt it... used it... Stick to your instinct... Your sixth sense is always right... Observe the people and things around you....Stay away if you sense so... Prevention is always better and worst case scenario you get into it, fight... just fight... raise your voice... Make a support group... At workplaces, there are so many committees for such things.. Each organization has a separate cell for this. Save that phone number/email address for worst nightmare. Talk... Talk to someone.. Never find yourself alone. Help is just around you.

Level of Independence

Here is a scenario... When you are already late from office and then you find that your vehicle broke down... Nobody from your support group at workplace is present to help you... It's so late that all repairing shops nearby have closed down. You don't want anyone to disturb and call for you to pick up. Then. there ..there you have achieved awesome level of Independence. No strings attached to anyone and you know that only you have to solve your problems. You are not going to call some male to pick you up. Basically you are just comfortable with yourself and you don't need any man to complete you...Life is  good....

I remember when I left my home first time, came out in real world from safe shelter of parents.... I was just the same.... You realize in your life for the first time that even your toothpaste when finished, you only will have to buy new one... It was your father who always did this all your life till now and you never noticed... You only have to carry your big luggage..., you only have to buy cleaning stuffs and do all the cleaning... and everything basically... Doing all the things.... I would always be singing Shaan's Tanha Dil.... Basically, it was for lines "Ankhome sapne liye, Ghar se hum chal to diye" and would sing out all the pain of homesickness...
 
Alright so you are just carrying your broken scooter and after covering quite long distance you get to one repairing shop. The staff start checking. They give you all the reasons to change the stuffs and you agree only if that's the last thing they can do.   You ask them to  hurry up as your kid is waiting home. But then those people don't have the stuffs to be changed so one of them goes somewhere in an autorikshaw to get that since all the nearby shops has closed already. You have some waiting and thinking time...You send couple of "I miss you" texts to your besties and to make you smile you receive "Is everything alright?" , "Shall I call you now?" responses....Yaar... these besties are the people who know you truly... You get more strength by realizing once again that there are some people in the world to whom you can access any time... but you don't do it.
 
By this time your sixth sense senses something and find out that you are not with good people... The people around you are actually not good. You quickly scan all the things nearby and you just deal with it confidently... You keep your Self Defense mode on. But not for a single minute you fear. You see time and get to realize you have not seen your kid for more than 13 hours now. Again next day you need to go to work as early as possible as you have some "home work" to complete before starting your actual work.

The person in autorikshaw comes back and there was no stuff found to be replaced. So now there is nothing that can be done with your scooter. Now this time you actually raise your voice and asks those people to make the vehicle in whatever position it was. They do something and ask you to get it repaired as soon as some shop opens in the morning. Bill is 620Rs... What? Come on... I mean seriously? That person has not even changed or repaired the things... What he did was just made some arrangements to the scooter so that it will run for 20 kms more... Adding 50-100Rs of that autorikshaw fare... But 620? All those people started staring me and I again felt that these were "bad guys". I should leave now as soon as possible. You give 500Rs stating that's all you have got. After some arguments that person accepts and you leave.

When you reach home, your son welcomes you with his report card in hand. God... his playschool result is out. Oh God... You come to know that neighbors have actually distributed sweets for their pre-school kid's result. God... am I bad mother? I didn't get any sweets.... No... We are good... rather we are the best in our way... We are his mother and father both.... and we don't want to distribute sweets for this... I don't want him to learn this way.

Anyway, you go to your favorite God and look up, smile and say... Thank you God... I know that was you....Thank you for making me independent... thank you for giving me this freedom...

Friday, April 21, 2017

I am your.... Not man... Well-wisher may be...

 
It's been two days, the mother of kid has not returned home. I just hope she is well. Anyway, so baby was all alone and nobody to feed it. I took the responsibility. But again, the kid piegon is getting afraid whenever I am going near it. I need to convince it that I am Good Person and won't harm it. I need to communicate it such a way through my actions so that it understands. I keep blowing the familiar whistle which I do whenever I feed them. Though it tries to get up and fly when I go closer, I keep slowly some of it's food near him. He/she should get habitual to my presence near him/her.
And somewhere deep in his/her heart maybe it started realizing that it can trust me......I guess....Okay baby, you will need to go one day but understand the difference.... Not everyone is bad and not everyone is going to hurt you.... (Unfortunately, most of the people will... And it's right at it's place not to trust humankind and that's what made my task difficult.)
Anyway, Good Morning World....Very busy n long day I will be having but just wanted to share this piegon's photo.

Hey, after writing a title, I remembered a regular reader of mine....'Your Well-wisher'.  Hey my Well-wisher, do you still follow this blog? No comment since long time.... All well? I would like your inputs whenever you think I need a friend's​ advice.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Kabu....I am your protector, not enemy...

 
The little kids are growing up really fast. Unfortunately, one of the twins have vanished. I believe, it must have fell down. Guess what, when I went close to one of them, it actually tried to fly...  but could not. It went into self defense mode. Comeon baby, I am your protector... not enemy... Your mother knows this. She is comfortable when I come close to you guys. You are just a kid now, but when you will go to real world, gradually, you will understand the difference between good people and bad people..
 

Monday, April 17, 2017

Tu mere paas bhi hai... Tu mere saath bhi hai....




Believe in yourself and you will be unstoppable. :)
Good Morning World, have a wonderful day ahead.

Bhay ithle, Kevha tari Pahate and Pahile na mi Tula

When you are actually facing your fears.... and then this song comes...



It certainly puts a smile on your lips... even though you were sweating...

And then.... Kevha Tari Pahaate, ultun raatra geli... mitle chukun dole... Seriously?  I mean, God, you want to divert my mind, right?




God, You are really my best friend...I really don't need anyone, when you are with me...
Somebody please stop me... I am just going through all my songs in youtube now...

Healthy Eating and Healthy Life Style Challenge - Weekly Update

Alright so second week was not like the first one and there were couple of times where I actually cheated... well not technically... More on that in a minute... Basically, I did all the things okay okay... Everything was done properly... except one thing...
Well, as per challenge, I am not supposed to eat ice-cream and sugar as well.. Okay so I ate Mastani... But only after reading this note... "Mastani is not an ice-cream".

 
I know, I should not have done this but I did... My heart wished to eat... and I didn't want to miss the moment. Alright, so compensation now..
 
And by the way I am not paying attention on my weight now.. But after today's checkup, it's still the same... no loss, no gain...
 

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Apne Badal ka....


Image credit:https://onsizzle.com/i/ometimes-just-look-up-smile-and-say-that-was-you-2815305
 
Thank You God, for everything... You always save me from all the bad things and bad people... Even though I might not understand the things at present, or the reason behind them or what are you upto, I trust you completely and I know you will do the best for me. Thanks Again.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Chittiyaan Kalaaiyaan Ve

It was a random boring day at work where few systems were not working and we were stuck with some other boring tasks. As usual, the radio was playing in my ears. There came a dancing number which had potential to high up the spirits. I was okay... Later another dance number... Feets started stamping... Third one... Hey, what's going on? It seems like all the dance numbers are playing in a row but wait a minute... what's the theme? There is no relation between these songs.. Except they are dance numbers... and they were on my selected songs list..... Yes, only those songs were playing on the radio which I had shortlisted to decide on my dance...Hey... how did radio guys know these songs? I had emailed this shortlisted songs list to one of my bestie for her suggestions but we couldn't find time from work to decide on something. Hey, is she dedicating these songs for me? Oh God... I do that all the time... I do dedicate songs on radio for my special near and dear ones... my friends... But generally, it is for birthdays or special days... Well, it is rare case when I dedicate songs on random days and guess what it happened twice that, I just dedicate songs for my friends and didn't tell them about it... As soon as song finished, my mobile rang... Friend had listened it and the message as well... Telepathy works... sometimes.... Anyway, so since I had not got time to decide on my dance song, God had made this arrangement to make my decision may be... I was listening all the songs and I was like... okay.... not so good... This is too much Punjabi... will people understand there?  This is too cheesy.... Naah.... Oh God... this is my movie... but no, I am not going to take it's song... I wont be able to do justice to that song... and then this...  You know what... finally, my heart knows me and hence makes all the things to listen to it...  I already had soft corner for this song but to be fair with decision making, I didn't pay attention to my heart... But this was the one who made me dance completely...Each body part was moving on this tune...So seems like this won... since I had to dance... the number should be like this... 

By the way, my sister-in-law had hired a choreographer who is charging 3.5K grands for one song choreography and she is doing 3 songs... That choreographer came to me as well...Are you serious? Do you think I am going to pay for this? now? Anyway, I need to be best my way... and enjoy....



God, its 7 am... I need to leave for work in few hours... I am writing this blog post sitting on my kitchen cabinet while my food is cooking... I know, I am very good at multitasking... Each working mother has to be... Fortunately, son has given some me time today. Once he gets up, there's nothing I can do... I just have to be around him. Good Morning Folks and Have a dancing day...

Tu na Jaane Aas Paas hai Khuda...

Seriously?



What happened to my bucket list? In the end that's what matters... Being happy and staying happy...
Do whatever makes you happy...

Thank you God.... I know you are always with me...

Thursday, April 13, 2017

 
Sometimes, brain keeps warning something but heart don't listen and later end up getting hurt. Similar thing happened.  After 9 big years.... Same person, on the same occasion did hurt Pinkey for the same reason... Come on heart, don't you learn anything from experiences? How can you expect nice things when you know.....

And God... She was thinking that whatever happened meanwhile good-bad in all these years was for some good end...And God You... Whenever she was in doubt, you gave her green signals... She was never desperate...rather she was missing some good opportunities because of this. Anyway, brain never did approve, it was only heart doing all stupid things...God...I don't wanna go back again to those dark nights...Pinkey is good at hiding pain but her father still realize something is wrong when she is diverting to other emotions. She don't want to make her parents worry once again about her..

God, I don't understand... I know, I am just being negative... I am just upset... Everything is just misunderstanding may be...
See, again... stop being so optimistic... It's just gonna end up hurting you... There is no good future for you... Accept this and move on...

Sang Hu Tere.....

I actually went through all my posts labelled with Music now just to confirm...
The really very much close to heart songs or my favoritestestestest songs... I never share them... ;) It takes too much to share something...




Don't know why... But that's how I am....

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Questions of a Toddler

So my boy is 3 years old now and his questions have became so random. I really wonder where he get all those questions from. He is so curious all the time. But his creativity is at the peak at the time we are in toilet, I mean he is doing his job and myself - the mother is holding him. (Though he is ahead of kids his age, he is not yet completely potty trained). Actually, since he was little I have made this time as question answers session. I would always make most of this time by teaching him new things like this is tap, this is bucket, then these are eyes, these are hands, head, mouth etc and then asking him questions to revise these taught things.  It seems that my this habit is now haunting me.  He keeps asking me so many questions... well, as other kids he asks me questions all the time I am with him but this time is just my interview time now...
And the questions are becoming so difficult these days...
"Mother, why you are not boy?" "Because I am your mother and all mothers are girls, I had already told you that mothers are girls." "Okay then why I am not girl?", "How cow is giving milk and what is that?" "What is the color of tap or cement?" Off course, I do answer him all the time with all the patience and in the words with examples he will understand but then these questions are just not-ending anywhere.

If we had to wait for longer to let him finish his "job" and I by mistake give bored expression, he will ask, "Is your stomach paining?" He refers to my period cramps when I just tell him that my stomach is paining. When I refuse, his next question is "when will your stomach pain then?" I seriously feel, how does his brain select such questions to ask...If I am not answering his questions, his next question is why are you not answering mother? Is there something in your mouth that you are eating? Or did you cry? (Oh God, never on the earth I cried in front of him, still I don't know where he gets this idea from that I will keep quiet if I cried).  But there is one good thing, for few questions if I am not comfortable after answering say about relations and all, he don't actually repeat those questions again. I don't know how come he got that maturity so early but he just sense and never talk about that again.
 Anyway and when he makes me angry, not listening to me and doing all the stubbornness... God...I just feel to... I remember if one of my posts (just searched here, it's not on this blog, that post is on my another personal blog) I had written for my kid-to-be while I was pregnant, that be just like me... be all the Ziddi and something like that.. Now I feel he has actually listened that wish and became just like me... which is sometimes so annoying... God... I know I annoy much at times but so much...

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Healthy Eating and Healthy Life Style Challenge - Weekly Update

One week had already passed and I am doing okay okay for this so far. I have done all the things planned. There was only one day missed for Sun Salutation. Rest everything was done properly. I am realizing that as usual, I am doing all the clean eating things very nicely, but when it is coming to workout or exercise part of it, I am struggling. I am tracking all these things in an excel file and water, milk, no sugar, fruits, salads everything is going well.

However, frankly speaking, after one week of this challenge, I am not feeling lighter... Rather I am feeling heavier... Is that drinking milk doing too much? Or am I eating too much and exercising less? yeah may be... But whatever, lets still continue with this for this month... Even if I put on weight (in worst case scenario before wedding, I can always pretend that I am just happy go fattier in the wedding :( But I don't want to be fat.. I want to look gorgeous in my outfits...). Anyway, moral of the story, add more workouts in daily routine.

Tu Kahaa

This one is from the playlist which I prepared since my childhood for my lonely long drives...



And know what, my son is just like me in this case... Whenever we are going on long rides, he just keeps singing.... whatever he knows.... it can be "Twinkle twinkle little star" or "Dhobi aaya dhobi aaya, kapde saaf, kapde saaf" and so on...

Monday, April 10, 2017

Little Piegons

As you are aware, there were deliveries due in my home... So, here are the boys... opening their eyes to this beautiful world...

 
Finally, now I can water my plant which they had made their home in this duration... Fortunately, it still has life..
 

Friday, April 7, 2017

Asha Bhosle's Raat Shabnami

Since missed Janam Samza karo again saw the video.. Actually I had some dream today which I didn't remember clearly but there was this song in the background.



Milind Soman looks so cute in this... I recently got chance to see him at a marathon... He is really fit.. and REAL...  Yesterday I was listening to Alisha's songs and in her Made in India too he was..... hmm... hmm... okay... you know what I mean... ;)
Hey, this flute is so nice..... that was Leslie Lewis playing, right? When you see the videos which you had already seen say hundred of times, you get something new each time as you grow up.





 

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Chura Liya Hai

Well, I am not writing all those goals again now.... I mean at this moment.. Some time later... By the way, all this time while I was writing, in background my radio was on and the song which had stuck in my mind was this... Aashaji started my day by Jaanam Samza Karo this morning and seems like it gonna end with this Chura liya...



Once again my fantasy has flashed. I am seriously going to learn guitar one day... just to play some song for someone special... It will be so so........ Ahh....

Naahh... after watching this video... this is not my style... I will do something original... It happens all the time... songs are close to my heart when I am listening them but when I watch the video of it, it is something different..  Hey, by the way, I had already put about hobby in my goals, I can actually add learning guitar in it... But I don't have it... how I am going to practice... and I am not that crazy for this idea now that I am going to spend that much for guitar. I know myself better. Let's see if this idea sticks to me for long time.. I will definitely work on it, if I, say want to learn it after say few months may be...

My Goals...

I have just starting hating Windows 10 and blogger both. I took so long and so much efforts spent on my goals post and now when I was ready to publish it, it is just no where. It is showing me the very first version of draft.... the only 3 lines which I had already published... I had touched on all my points of the goals and now... its all gone...just vanished... Oh God...

Okay, so God, do you want me to re-look at my goals of this month? Alright then, I will.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Goals for the Month - April 2017

My goals post was deleted somehow and I think that was really good thing happened. I have re-thought and re-written all of them as of now. Here the list of my goals this month goes.
  • Writing: My top-most priority this month is writing. Writing will require reading as well. So I will be spending much time reading+writing. I want to write whatever I have in my drafts, bookmarks and mind since long. Let the posts be flooded to my technical blog. Minimum 20 posts this month and I mean minimum.

  • Shopping : My wardrobe will be needing a festive makeover. I will be needing right from party wear clothes of many types and matching accessories, clutches and everything basically for a wedding in family.

  • Cooking :  Nothing... Absolutely nothing... I am in no mood of cooking now. All the feelings to cook have vanished now. I just don't want to waste my time in learning and trying new dishes this month.... rather for some more time in future as well. As told jokingly to my colleague, I have no plans of cooking for next 2 years now... Enough already...I will be just cooking minimum required daily for survival.
  • Weekends -- I will be spending all my weekends in my office, doing pending work now.


  • Dance -- Just excel in whatever has decided to dance for function.

  • PDUs-- I will be earning 8 PDUs this month. Actually I need only 2 other 6 will be gained by attending a conference.

  • Drinking 5 liters of Water daily -- Continue with this. 


  • Drinking Milk Daily -- Continue with this.


  • Tax planning -- Beginning of the planning.


  • Lunch/ Dinner Date : I will have minimum of 8 Lunch/dinner dates with myself.


  • Walking 30 minutes -- I am dropping this for this month now because of some personal reasons. However I will compensate by dancing.


  • Chanting 108 mantras for 20 days -- This is going okay these days so I think I will be able to achieve this easily.


  • Plank -- Plank Challenge for minimum 15 days. -- Okay, I am starting again with this. Let's try for 15 days.


  • Finance Planning -- Review finances and plan according to the situation and start and stop SIPs, buy/sell accordingly.
  • Car Driving -- I want to drive car to my workplace. And my workplace is not at all my area so I am not sure about car. So have to practice early morning and late nights on that road.

  • Hobby : I am not sure, if I will get any chance for this but still will be writing just as a wish... If I get time, I will create one piece... (optional).
At the time of writing these goals I am actually very happy and confident. I wanted a victory and that is something that I got already. Time to show true colors... Time to remove the girly anklet and wear those boys shoes again. Come on, let's ride...roller coaster ride may be... :) Enjoy the life baby... God gives you all the opportunities to live each and everything... Dilse.... Live these moments as well... Who knows... Kal ho na ho...

Healthy Eating and Healthy Life Style Challenge

Little bit background (drama) first. I always thought that I am eating better, I make mostly healthier choices when it comes to eating. But from some time I was feeling bit "not so active or lighter inside". And then last week when I went for my hair spa, I observed one white hair in my traces. I did ask my hair expert, "Hey, is there a white hair?". He said, if there is a white hair, he can cut it. I said what I had heard earlier, if you cut one white hair, 4 hairs goes white. He said, he wont cut it from root. After sometime I saw it again. There is certainly a gray hair. I said him, See there is a white hair. This time he kept mum. We were doing our message and I was relaxed and forgot about it and near the end of the process, I saw it again. I said, hey you saw that. This time he replied, "Actually Madam, there are more than one" and I just responded dramatically "What? What?? What???. How is it possible? I never had a white hair and now you are saying more than one. I started counting and I myself could see 3 white hairs. Oh God.. I never paid attention. I never thought my hair will be white. Comeon yaar, abhi to life shuru hui hai and ye safed baal... He said, he can color my hair. I just scolded, "NO. My hair are virgin and I won't do anything with chemicals on them." He offered to use herbal products but I was like No means No. I asked him what is normal age of getting white hair. He said, in our parent's generation first white hair would happen after age of 40 years. Hell... I still have 10 years for my first white hair ideally. My father is still having 70% black hair and all he applies is just regular coconut oil. I asked my expert, reasons of white hair and he said Stress, eating junk food, bad life style etc. Stress.... Okay, so there my actual problem was. This month, my son being got that convulsions attack got me too much emotionally stressed and then there were many ups and downs in all the areas of life... rather only downs in this month. So stress was number 1 reason. I should be stress free and then I should tackle other reasons as well. No junk food and healthy life style.

So, here is something I had decided to go with. One of my Facebook group is running these challenges and I have planned to join them.  While the first one, "No Junk Food Challenge", I can easily do, for second Clean Eating Challenge, I fear about the adding sugar thing.  Well, I have already done this No Sugar thing for a month in past but on weekends it becomes bit difficult. I drink tea on weekends (In fact, at the time of starting this post, I was sipping from my tea mug). Anyway, I am still going with this. I am adding my own customization to the challenges like eating 2 salads a day (I have a salad daily but I don't eat salad in dinner so, I will add salads to my dinner now), eating at least a fruit daily, drinking milk daily, 5 liters of water out of which 1 liter from my copper bottle, curd/butter milk daily, daily breakfast and by breakfast I mean eating before leaving my home even if I am late for work and whatever I will remember, I will add.
For exercise part of it, I will only stick to sun salutations for this challenge, nothing more. I don't want to start with big and then not able to carry on. To maintain consistency, I will only take up on my plate which I feel I can finish.
And now punishment part of it, in case I miss to follow this or accidently or knowingly miss something in this challenge and eat something unhealthy, it will add 2 extra days in my challenge and 2 extra hours of workout the same day I missed the challenge for one instance.
 Okay and how I am going to track all this? Not decided yet... May be I can maintain an excel sheet. Umm.. I need to find a better way to track. For my regular healthy eating tracking, I click photos of whatever healthy I eat. I can go ahead with that approach or whatever. Can you suggest me something nice?
Though I have started with most of the things in challenge but since I had tea with sugar today, I am officially starting this challenge tomorrow - 3rd April. I will continue till end of the month - 30th April should be officially last day of this challenge.

Let's see how it goes. All the best to me.

 

Nahi Samane Tu.... again...

Last few days it was somewhere in my heart and as the saying goes, ... saari Kaaynaat..... first I saw the original version after years and then this one in my facebook feed.... I think I have already posted this song couple of times... But what do I do... the song is like that only... Here is new choreography..


Tera naam maine liya hai yaha... Muze yaad Tune kiya hai waha.... Bade jor ki aaj barsaat hai...

Bichad ke bhi muzse juda Tu nahi... Khafaa hai magar Bewafaa Tu nahi... Mere haath me hi Tera haath hai....

Mere Saath Hai Tu... Mere Paas hai Tu... Mere Saath hai Tu....



You know what, I didn't like this above video. It doesn't give that original wali feeling which Akshay Khanna gives.. It goes directly to the heart and makes you really miss your someone special...
Ahh...
 

Goals for the Month - March 2017 - Tracking

Here is my month-end review for my goals for March month. For reference, here are the goals of the month posted.


  • Shopping : Done pretty well. From curtains to kitchen accessories, from mobile cover to different lip balms I bought many things that I had wished since long. Almost each day the courier delivery boy was getting me something that I had ordered and you know what, when one day I was broke and did not shop anything and I just spoke the words I want to do lots of shopping today, God turned the Santa and I got gifts for everyone in the family (which obviously I had ordered earlier). Among major shopping ones, the main refrigerator one... actual purchase is not done. I had my own criteria (like 5 star energy rating, single door, Indian brand etc) decided and I had done lots of research according to that. I shortlisted 3 different models and went to an actual store to see those. However, when I visited the store along with a colleague friend, the salespersons gave information about the energy ratings and actually it seemed that even though a model was 3 star but it was consuming energy lesser than other brands 4 star model. So I was little bit convinced to give up on my one criteria of 5 star.  I was actually tempted enough to buy it instantly. But obviously, I did not want to make decision in hurry so I slept on it. Next day when I asked a doubt to my colleague friend, he was like, "why are you thinking so much, it's not a very big purchase, just go n buy". These words first made me think and I realized I was making mistake by hurrying. The earlier day I had thought to buy it in 2 days but this moment I decided NOT to buy it for 2 weeks at least.  I should NOT leave my criteria just for someone else. I am a stubborn person and my purchases are my own decisions.... always... I can consider someone's suggestion but no one can force me to buy something. I am who I am and I will do what I like. Thanks my friend, for reminding me that I am not like you. Anyway so I again started searching with my very own criteria and  this time again came up with few models. By the way, here is a link that was helpful. I did try to order couple of them. One was not available in my area for delivery and another had stock not available. So had to wait now for getting it into the stock. I will mark this as 65% Done. And yes, I also bought a failed purchase in this. I bought solar mobile charger and guess what, though it works, it doesn't work with my mobile. It has more power than what my mobile needs so it don't charge the mobile, it does the reverse. Totally wasted money on that solar charger.

  • Cooking : I did try various Salads salads, new dishes. But ice-cream and Mayonnaise I didn't do. I had planned them for my new refrigerator. Hence there was Finish to Start dependency for this on above item and hence couldn't do. Still, will give 65% done.

  • Weekends -- I had attended Pandit Jasraj's concert PanchTatva and it was really awesome. However, this time more than Panditji, I liked the flute performances. I was like, Ahh... Oh God I am so glad, I got to experience this event for that flute performance...seriously in love with those two tremendous personalities..it was just amazing jugalbandi.... I just forgot myself... and it was the case with most of the audience present there....Then, I went for a 12 km cycling rally on Women's day event, tried anti-gravity yoga too. I also went for a Women's day special Zumba party this month.. Spa done more than once.  97% done.

  • Read Book - Not done. But I am not worried about this. I know, when I will sit for reading, I will read it in one go even before having another sip of water. 0%  --Not done.

    • Extra Income -- It was okay.. rather was average. -- 70% done.

    • Dance --  Not even decided on songs. I seriously wish to dance on "Maine Break-up kar liya" . But since it is wedding and it is not going with the given theme also. But I have an awesome choreography on breakup song that I will definitely try on some event. I will mark this totally 0% Failed. I have not even decided on my clothes, regular events clothes, dance clothes, kids clothes, travelling clothes. I have so many dresses and so many functions and we cousins are still in deciding phase, "Kathpadar saree in Haldi or Navwari saree",  "Laacha/Sharara/Ghagra in Sangeet or Anarkali suit", "Vidaai will be definitely in western pattern Panjabi suit", "Silk saree/suit in lunch time".  and so on.... So I am just buying many options for the wedding so that I will always have something whatever we decide to wear. By the way, if any of reader has any suggestion for a song to dance in a wedding, just let me know in the comments. One solo dance for me, one with my son.

    • PDUs-- Plan was 10 But again here I had done more than planned. There were 3 more done but thanks to my coworker who had deleted all their data that I needed to claim,  from my computer. --100% Done.

    • Drinking 5 liters of Water daily -- Okay done on most of the days. 80% done.

    • Drinking Milk Daily -- Done on all the days of month except on periods. --100% done.

    • Tax planning -- Done -- 100%.

    • Lunch/ Dinner Date : There were more than 2 lunch/dinner dates with myself. Then there was a special dinner date with my son as well and yes, few tea/snacking dates with colleague friends as well. I think my coworkers know now that if I am grumpy just take me out to eat something nice. 100% Done.  But still, not a single date with the people whom I would like to go with ;)  

    • Walking 30 minutes -- Done on all possible days. -- 90% done.
    • Chanting 108 mantras for 20 days -- Done 100%

    • Plank for 15 days -- Done 100%.

    • Finance Planning -- This went awesome. I did few purchases in Kotak, Birla mutual funds and also was very active in trading. 100% done
    • Car Driving -- You know what, I think I need a friend. I really need a friend who will sit with me in car when I am driving.... or my old friends or my mentors who know how to motivate me so that I will do this alone. ... you know... I can do it wali thing.... I know it damnit, I had driven the car to places, I had driven my family and my own new born child to different city while I was driving regularly and now I just don't have confidence. What the heck problem is with me. Total failure 0%.

    Look at those colors... there are so many red this month... But I know... most of the month I was not "real me"... I was mostly upset and upset means doing nothing.... Anyway, I just hate myself. (Well, not really, I am just not in good mood while I am writing this). I knew everything is fine and going to be alright but at this moment I have feeling like I am not getting what I want. I am just wasting time... I don't want to fall again now... I want to rise.. and this is what had happened to my life. When I am deciding something important, even God is confusing me. At times it's like "Go ahead and conquer the world" and at times, "walk away... its not your territory. This is not where you belong".
     
     

    Blog Template by YummyLolly.com