Sunday, November 19, 2017

Healthy Eating

Last week I took my parents for preventive medical checkup. For mother everything was normal but for my father cholesterol levels are in red zone. Alright, enough. Time for my daughter-giri. I have made him a tasks list which includes food to be eaten daily and exercise.


Let's see how it goes. 

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Ek Din - One Fine Day....


Rainy Mood with rainymood.com

I think I may have written about this already. So if you are not able to concentrate and need some relaxation, rainymood.com is to help. The website plays different rainy sounds. You can minimise the browser and music will keep playing in background. It helps to focus or to sleep... whatever required. It also has mobile application.
Since I was not able to focus on my task started playing it. It's so relaxing that, seems it will make me sleep. 😁

Music is Back

I think it has been proved once again to myself that I am stupid.  Last several months, I was feeling that music has left me but it was with me all the time.... just I couldn't recognise....(I am talking about music, right? ). I was feeling that my phone has some problem and cannot play music but it was not at all the case. I was not listening to music ,I was not listening anything and I was just lonely... without music......there was no music in the life. Even though YouTube was accessible and I was accessing it but it was for training videos,motivational and inspirational videos only....So basically music was out of the life... Now when I actually went to the mobile repairing shop...
(and obviously going to mobile service centre was not easy task....it has taken a lot of efforts. I had to find the bill which was the difficult task, since I had actually shifted those documents from one place to other....so searching that bill that was big task....then finding the service center....that was another task and  finding time to go there and get it checked and repair that was again another....Okay, so finally I got some time and I did my phone ready to give it to service centre. I had lots of videos, I had lots of photos, I had lots of pictures, saved pictures, screenshots, Facebook images and so many things and I actually deleted them.... heavy heartily....obviously....after taking a backup but you know I had to delete them which was not easy for me.... total emotional moment... So I took a backup of everything and then went to the service centre and guess what....when actually the service centre person checked my mobile and it was working fine... it was just brand new....there was no issue with it...There was not at all any problem... Everything was fine.... I just can't believe it.

I mean it's been so many months now that I'm using this phone but I never used it for music so I was actually not knowing how to use it and I am not a very much techie guy so I don't know how to explore all these things.  Earlier I was having one ex-colleague whom I would just go and ask him these things and now he's not with me.  So this issue was something that gave me the assumption that my phone was broken and it was not able to play the music but the fact was it was...it was just perfectly fine.  The thing was that I only was not able to use it properly. Well, now I know how to use it so again music is back in my life and I am going to listen my radio all day and all night..
That was the one thing that I was missing so badly I guess.

One dedication on radio for my music and phone basically...
Tumhe Gaonme dhunda....Shaharme dhunda...
Tum Dilme base the.... Tumhe Dilme na dhunda....

Someone's Loss


Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Happiness is ..... Your son able to button-up his shirt for first time....

I am very busy and I already have several blog posts ideas and drafts piling... But still posting this since I wanted to cherish the moment....
So before heading to couple of back-to-back meetings, to do quick check on my son, I called home. My son was actually waiting for my call and wanted to talk to me.... because....in his words..... "Mumma.... I have button-up my shirt....with my own hand...." Oh God. He could button-down his shirt but he couldn't button up till now. He was sounding so happy. Although it had taken half an hour to button up but he didn't give up and succeeded. He got the logic of how to button-up.
I was like... how fast he is growing... I remember the first time I saw him when he was born...still connected with my body...tiny... red.... and my silly reaction as well...  :)
 
He is growing so fast... He walks, runs, jumps but he keeps on insisting to carry him while climbing stairs. Many times when I already  have luggage with me, I ask him to walk and how "Good Boys" walk by themselves.... He sometimes listen and sometimes don't... and I have to carry him with kilos of other stuff with me... But then I see him when I drop him school, he walks on his own carrying his school bag, water bag and tiffin etc. Sometimes, I do feel myself that he should ask me to take him in my arms and carry him and he don't... I realize he is seriously growing...
 
You know similar happens while breast feeding. You are awake whole night in initial months for breast feeding, then throughout days, its only as per baby needs and you feel sometimes like you are just milk making machine or what... and God save you from the embracement of leaking breasts at workplace... Then you and baby gets used to it... and months, years pass by and then everybody keeps advising you to stop breastfeeding now. As a mother and baby you both are comfortable now... baby is eating other food items as well... Because of pressure from "" people you keep telling baby about other food items. And suddenly one day...there is no requirement for breast feeding from baby. And ta-da... you realize that it's over... You won't be breastfeeding your baby whole life now... That was it... The holy feeling you were having while breastfeeding won't be there now... It's all gone.. over...
 
While I am writing this, I understand the same thing is going to happen for bathroom things as well. I do bathe him, do his toilet things. But how many days... one day, he will do all these on his own... At present, while he is doing his job in toilet, he keeps me telling... 'Mumma, I want to grow old... but even if I grow old, I am not going to wash up myself in bathroom... You only do it..."  I just smile... realizing... this is only for few days... I know in few years, when he will be a teenager, he won't even let me check his body, even if there is some injury.
 
You know what is satisfying at the moment... the present moment I am enjoying because as I am writing this post, my baby is on my laps... sleeping.... yeah... I know... just little time... 
 
Had read somewhere...
 
Daudne do khule Maidanome Nanhe kadmonko Saahab,
Zindagi bahut bhagati hai, Bachpan gujar jaane ke baad..
 
 
Happy Children's Day World... If you have children, make most of each moment since they won't be of this age again.... If you don't have children... be with those where you can open up and  let your inner child be out.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

So Many Sleepless Nights


just for that one Smile on lips....
It's like trekking the mountain up... Just for that one moment of looking down from the top....
All the Best Baby.... I am all with You.... Let's do it....

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Tera na hona jaane....

It seems this 10 years Celebration of Jab We Met is going to stay for sometime....
Found this post today.

https://www.popxo.com/2017/10/things-we-learnt-from-jab-we-met/

Few things in the post are really motivating.  Huhun....

Kya Fikar hai Tumhe Zamaane....

After a long day, tired and hungry (though there were several options available to eat but couldn't eat), I was headed for home. As already stated, last few months music has also left me alone so there is no music with me and I am not at all listening to music (except for the times when I am writing these music posts). So basically tired, sad with bad face in traffic jam... Saw two people on a motorbike on traffic signal....After staring for few moments... heart sang this....
Duniya me chalo Akele... Apne ho Armaan....
Apne hisse ki ho dharti... Apna ho Aasmaan....

Seriously? This song? Where did this come from? This 90's pop song was one of my songs.... On this "Taaa TaraRira Rara... TaraRira Rara... TaraRira Ree RaaRaaa..." I have jumped on bed so many times after my school/college while home alone. But... I had not heard this song in years... yes... years... where this came from? You know what... I think our subconscious mind is way better than Google... In Google you have to specify what you want to search for.... But subconscious mind... it automatically realizes what you want and it then searches it and presents too... :)



Vow..... I love those shirts, jackets and sunglasses... I want those.... I mean... seriously... my shopping is pending since months. I have created shopping list since last few months but actually I am not at all in mood of shopping. In fact, I went for shopping for at-least 8-10 times but guess what, I bought nothing. Once I just met a friend whom I had called for shopping and just kept chatting instead of shopping, later I went alone to several places... I actually did lots of window shopping but bought NOTHING. Finally last few days when I couldn't find time for shopping, I ordered from Amazon, I did payment as well and then on Confirm screen, I didn't confirm. Hey do you know that, in such cases, payment is reversed in one day and the items again go back to your shopping cart. So again not done... I actually NEED several things... you know... shirts, jackets, lip colors, bracelets and shoes... God... I am having just 3 pairs of formal shoes.... I have so many colors in trousers and for them have only 3 pairs of formal shoes... (As usual, my demands are like these only... unique and which needs lots of searching.... where I am gonna find out dark tomato red formal shoes or violet colored formal shoes.... But now I wish to I want them... and definitely I will find one day....) . I want to do shopping for my birthday as well and I have decided to buy something big for myself this time... and then I have several gift cards as well... Oh My... I have a gift card since months that I have not even opened it... You know... Good Memories and Feelings... that don't even want to spend it...... I will have to check it first... Is it even valid or not now... God that was good amount...

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Jab We Met and Believe

Spending hours browsing and see what I got.....
https://www.popxo.com/2017/10/jab-we-met-completing-ten-years/

Seriously? Positive but Dark Tunnel.... Light.... losing a part whose everyone was fond of.... What's going on?

It's ending with Believe.... Believe.... Yes....

Don't give up on Faith.... Aditya will come...😁

Just feeling low.... Nothing else.... Will be fine before Sunshine

Life is going through a dark tunnel at the moment... Frankly speaking I see no light anywhere. But I have accepted that one day there will be sun..... I know everything happens for good, it's just I am not able to cope.  I know it's just that am feeling weakest at the moment. I am just hiding may be.... Not facing anyone.... Maybe I don't want to face the fact which my heart had accepted may be.... May be everything was meant to be like this only.... It took me so long to find myself again.... But you know what, a part of me is lost again.... And that was major part... I don't think recovery is easy.... Oh God.... I don't want to write negative but I need to open up somewhere.  The way I stay calm, cool and quite in storm....others want me to cry... which obviously I don't.... But you know what... I realise that I am faking.... everything may be.... I don't know.... Had I asked too much, God?
Okay....fine....

It's alright. I am fine and I know I am the Queen who will walk with head high up... Not everything happens as we want it to be... But whatever happens that's for our best.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Happy Dipawali....

Just like last year, this year too I was not in mood of Diwali till this morning. Same reason all alone at Diwali and then you know many thoughts come in such time...  This is not what my heart wishes for and blah blah... So anyway, last few days I was in this sad mood and that too without any reason. You know everything was good around me... just I was not me...I was really trying hard to cheer me up. I was analyzing myself and my behavior to see what can lift me up.  I was in good place actually... got couple of big opportunities at work that I never had before... and I did quite well too... I went to salon to pamper myself... taken initiatives for Diwali celebrations events for my team and couple of other teams at my work... (Seriously? I was not in mood to celebrate Diwali myself and still I managed to get team-members to celebrate events. I actually wanted to start off with these events and by God's Grace it was not so bad.) I just kept sleeping all those days. I also indulged in junk food... But nothing lifted me up...

Today the main day of Diwali, I had participated in an event organized in the city and it suddenly cheered me up. I was happy. Met so many people and once again I realized that I can enjoy with any one... I don't feel awkward around strangers... not at all...rather looking at history, my fun times are with strangers mostly... (I did ask my friends to join me for this event... But you know everyone was busy and couldn't spare few hours... Anyway... and by the way... I met a man and lady at the event who actually went to Leh-Ladakh and Bhootan in last couple of months on their bikes... Oh my... that's one of my dreams... He too understood that I was different and I will definitely do it sometime. He asked me to join his group as well... Okay... let me calculate... I need a Royal bike then... Huhu... let's plan something to save for this bike now...

Okay so Diwali started for me... went to all holy places... received compliments as well... One of the regular visitor actually told me... "I didn't recognize you at first... You are the one who borrow scarf/dupatta to enter inside the temple, right? You look nice." I even got a chance to see my son for a minute. But obviously, when we parted I was sad again.


To make things good, I just went out for ride at the noon. You know my old theory of "when you are in love, you don't feel sun... all you feel is moon and stars and cool weather..." So being deeply in my self-love, I actually rode quite a far distance... Okay here is something that I did before couple of days. I actually purchased few packets of several kgs of Jowar and I was keeping couple of packets with me always. I wanted to donate them to the needy persons and I was searching for those people while riding. (I actually think now, such things just happen by default. Earlier when I would do such things, my family members would be surprised. Now they are also aware that I keep doing such things so they ignore when I bring home such things. So last week I had bought 150 kgs of grains for donating... you see Diwali and then my birthday is also coming up so wanted to celebrate.) Thankfully met a lady who was pregnant and with her daughter. I talked to her and she was hesitant at first but later she opened up her heart. She was the one whom I gave today's packets. She was happy and so was her daughter. While I was talking to her, a owner of a shop and may be his manager were searching for dogs. They had done Pooja in their shop and the rest of the food they wanted to give to dogs since they wanted to close the shop. Dear God.... Please give me strength and will to help the needy and under privileged always. I know, you give to people so that they can help who don't receive it. 

I am Happy. I am me now... Happy Diwali World... May this Diwali brings you Happiness, Love, Health, Wealth and lots of Fun...

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Bade Joroki aaj Barsaat hai....

Tera Naam Maine Liya hai Yahan...
Muze Yaad Tune Kiya hai Wahan....
Bade joro ki aaj Barsaat hai.....
 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Follow Your Inner Moonlight, don't hide Madness.... Be YOU....



As mentioned already many times, my dreams have some power. They give me hints of future. Then my subconscious mind is able to solve those problems in my dreams which I am facing in reality. So kind of I am working even when I am sleeping.  And sometimes I see just a movie dream...
 You know....whole full fledged whole drama included lovestory with happy ending. Anyway, so out of nowhere this day started with such a lovely and not only lovely but... I don't know I don't have words... dream. It actually solved a real world problem and solution was something that I could never have thought of. 

I just wanted to dance like a kid or a teenager... And I remembered this song....yep....cheesy cheesy dreamy dreamy world song.... 



Good Morning World.... I am overloaded at work... need to find solutions to many problems which were never faced before... But I am happy.... My problems are bigger now.... I have grown.... I am more powerful..... And now this dream...it had given me strength. You too have strengthful, powerful, lovely day.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

It's New World...

New day is always opportunity for New Beginnings. New Beginning is New World. Good Morning World. Have a Great New Beginning.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Flavoured Water

 

My water intake had reduced drastically last couple of months. While I want to re-begin with my healthy lifestyle, here is a step. I am drinking fruits infused water. I had asked for this bottle instead of payment to one of clients. Started using it and today I have started liking it. Let's see if it makes any difference.

Ek Noor Aadmi 10 Noor Kapda

  
I went  to a place for my KYC. It was my second visit already. First time, they needed all the original documents and one of them was not with me. So this was second visit. After waiting for long time when it was my turn, I needed to go to the supervisor and then from that person to his supervisor. Reason was simple... Name discrepancies... Actually it was not the name discrepancy... rather I had all the documents required for the name I wanted... But the fact the person didn't like the concept that I should use this name. Seriously?

As per government laws in India, a married woman can continue her father's surname, if she wish. And if she is divorcee, again woman have choice of surnames. She can continue to use husband's surname or can keep father's surname whatever she wishes.

On the similar point I had fought in the past with one bank official and in the end everything was done as per my wish given I had showed appropriate proofs. This time also I had all the documents.. and that was my decision which surname I need to keep.
Obviously, at this time, I will want to keep the names whichever will require lesser efforts to me. It doesn't matter at this point in time to me which it is. I may change name in future depending on requirement. But at this time, I am not struggling alone with these government offices.

Anyway, so the person was very stubborn types and was not accepting the above laws. So am I... My values are my values. I may suffer losses for it but not going to tweak my values. I know I am right then I am not doing anything just to please you. I may not be emotionally attached to this name now but it doesn't mean I am taking a lot of efforts to change  and that too just to please your mind officer.
Alright, so in the end I was informed that my KYC can't be done though I had all the supporting documents. That was it. I then decided to close the account and then did all the procedure I was informed to.
Now for all this process it took 2-3 hours and my son was with me all this time. Obviously, like any good mother I too have all the things right from food, water to extra pair of clothes for him and I was feeding him time to time. But obviously he got bored after 3 hours and started whining. At this time, my application for closure was processed to the actual person closing the account. The lady checked the details and then called me and asked the reason to close. I did explain her that since they were not able to do my KYC, I needed to close it since I don't want to use such service. She checked all my documents and then requested me to sit. She reassured me that she can do everything fine and provided my son with some toy to play. She said she was observing me since hours that I was meeting different people with my son and bag alone. She said, it was not that big problem. She then went from all the staff members to whom I had met. She even went to the highest authority there and guess what, my issue was resolved. My KYC was done properly. She even offered lunch to me and my son, but I did have my food with me so I just thanked her.
 
I am really lucky that I get at least one person everywhere who reduces my problems and helps me. Thank You God for surrounding me with good people. Thank You...

But you know what, when I actually think with brain now this whole incident, I feel very bad. I think, the respect I was given, was not towards me but it was for the money or the business I made and will make to them. As stated earlier, I am in vacation mood these days, hence I am just wearing my super comfy casuals everywhere in the city. So looking at my clothes you don't feel that I am a client which you should give the special attention.
When you actually go into my account details while closing the account, you realize that I am high profile customer and suddenly you try your best and your rules are changed. My kid was with me since the time I was juggling through all the rubbish for hours and you suddenly feel that my kid would be hungry when you see my account balance may be. It should have been clear the moment I entered. I was actually sitting in special customers section.
 
Anyway, so once again it was the experience where appearance mattered. My close people know how I am not very much into appearance. But such incidents really make me do that dressing up and getting ready for the stupid world.
 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

I am Alive

I get Wings to fly.....

Love Hate Relationship

Finished reading a book..... Sort of love story.... Where one person loves another while he hates her. Okay.....love-hate relationship.... Many years ago I had read a book (either of S Rajwade or Suhas Shirwalkar). It was lovestory too but in it the girl loves the person and hates a character who is the same person appearantly. 
God....I thought that time why to complicate things.... I felt all drama in that book too filmy.
And this love hate relationship in current book.... Man... The boy is not interested in even simple casual talks with her...let remain the friendship....he had problem even if she called or texted him. He didn't even accept her friends request on social media..... And do all the efforts to avoid her.....at parties and wherever. When girls  friend texts him for some help and they go to his place, that person don't even see them, just asks his servant to give them message. Seriously....what the girl was thinking.... Again the same feeling as Badrinath ki Dulhaniya. Didn't she had any self Respect? Why to chase a person who is clearly not interested? And then these writers will do anything for happy ending.... Come on....you can't force anyone to like you. As simple as that.
Wasted my midnight reading this. Alright, you don't like a book... You come to know only after you read it.
I need to read another book now as well. It's review deadline today. Just took a break. Good Night World... I am enjoying my night reading.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Celebrating Break...

I really needed a break since long. I actually wanted to go to Himalayas as I feel many times.... Well, not Himalayas then atleast some place far away from this routine. But alas, due to my son's examination, I couldn't go. ( Seriously man, sometimes I don't understand....all that these kids write are alphabets with standing line and sleeping line...still how come these kids exams last for 15 days? Anyway, I understand different subjects.)  So I had to plan only on days he have holidays. I planned for Karnataka.... and then Goa too... But somehow plan couldn't be executed. I am the person who won't cry over spolit milk... actually, I  will make cottage cheese from spoilt milk.
 So below is the outcome of my outing.
 






Thank You God. Now, I am ready to face the world....face d world with a wink of an eye....☺ say hi hi hi to the passers-by....☺

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Maine Dil se Kaha...

There is a common trait in my best friends.... These are those people....who acknowledge their feelings and emotions... whatever they may be... They don't judge... they don't label them as right or wrong.... And obviously express with whoever comfortable with.... If I am feeling like mourning when everything is fine or perfect as per "world", I should... Its just natural... and that is the only way to get those emotions out... It happens with all of us, right? We just feel like upset and sad and we don't even know the reason... Just that phase.



Kaise Mai Kahu Tuzse....

Woke up with a dream and different feeling... so wanted to see this song...

God.... Sonuuuuu..... This one and actually all the songs from this film... my brother used to keep listening.... Don't know how come I am missing this one today....


Hey, wait a minute... this is from Sandip Khare's channel.... Is this my Sandip Khare?  Sandip Khare from the Salil Kulkarni + Sandip Khare duo...  No.... not mine... There are so many songs from Sandip Khare... which I just love...

PS: This is from my those posts in drafts which I had written but never posted. I don't see any dreams these days... and I don't want to see any dream... I don't want to be dreamy little girl... World is cruel...Let me be real and practical... and boring may be... (yeah, yah, yeah, I know myself... :) I will be normal is some time... :) )

Aur Aahista.... Kijiye Baatein...

Aur Aahista.... Kijiye Baatein...  Dhadkane Koi sun raha hoga....




Do you seriously change to do the things "slowly" considering someone is listening to your heartbeats...? I don't know... 
Haircut.... humhu....

Friday, September 15, 2017

Everything I do...



She couldn't hurt anyone... because she herself was searching for love...

Dahi Handi

I remembered that I am posting these photos each year... Alright, so it was Lord Krishna's birthday and today the dahi handi celebration... and I had planned that I won't be going this year to see the events in the city since I had to study for some interview scheduled tomorrow.
But you see destiny has plans for us... :) . Because of unexpected situation, I had to drop my father to a place in the city and while riding back, I got caught in all these processions.
Since the Independence day and Dahi handi came on same day, see this decoration below. They had several matkis hanged.

All the roads I wanted to pass were blocked and I had to take alternative roads on almost all the roads I went...  This is just a reminder... I will need to plan my route for coming Ganeshotsav festival. It is going to take hours for commute.

Anyway, I know, God knows that I like watching these Dahi Handi processions and events and you see, knock on the wood that he makes sure that all my wishes are fulfilled...

Ek Din Fursatme

Ek Din Fursatme... thame haath Hamare...
le gayi Us dagar pe... jaha rahti hai Baharein...
Chal diye Hum bhi Ghar se... ho ke kuch Befikar se..
Dil tha Apne bharose... Hum the Dil ke sahaare...



My God.... I think my subconscious mind is playing my playlist of last one decade these days.... It all has started from In Dino... Actually, not only songs and playlist... but may be I  am seeing the complete flashback film of my own life in last 10 years.... Vow.. a decade... that's good time... So many things... so many people... so many experiences...
A Decade of ..... !!!    What? ... decade of... restlessness?.... No... Happiness.....? Umm....  Experiences..... Umm.... Dreams....hunhu....... Songs....Umm.... learning.... challenges... opportunities...achievements....pains... sorrows...skills....laughter....travel....
knowing myself... being me...

Two Rings and Ten Offers

If you are my regular reader from beginning of this blog, you might be remembering that in my monthly goals I would have an item "Job Interview". I would go for job interviews at least once a month to stay update with the industry I work in. I had that folder of  "Offer Letters" created in my inbox.  Alright... so point of remembering the old thing is that I had started with that goal again.

Okay now after rock ground reality, let me go and fly in dreams. Last month when I had started with this goal of job interviews,  after few days I saw a dream in my sleep. Grab your coffee readers, I am going to narrate it completely... It was so lovely.... Naah....  let it be upto me only... I will just tell the main point...
So I went for a corporate lunch where I knew nobody except one co-worker. It was delicious food and stylish ambiance. I liked the place. After I was finished eating, my co-worker came to me and asked if I had seen a place near reception. She said that there was some decoration which I would definitely love and asked me to go and check out... I went there... there was a bowl with something to eat... I checked it and guess what... There was a Diamond Ring in it... What? A diamond ring? what does it mean? Is it for me? Seriously? I mean.... Ohhh...Oh my God.... Okay... so that's the reason my colleague friend sent me here.. to checkout the decoration which is not here... So someone who had planted this ring here has taken her help to send me here... Hunhun.... But wait a minute... What the..... What is this? Another diamond ring...!!!!! What....? Second one....? Wait...!!! One diamond ring... like this.... and another diamond ring... like this.... Okay... I got it now.... ( By the way... I have actually sketched the designs of both of these diamond rings in my diary.... you see... Proposals are nowhere in the cards now....So, I only will have to become my own Imran Hashmi of Jannat and buy these rings for me...Off course one day certainly I will... ). I observed them carefully for some time... and I put one of them slowly in my pocket...(Does that mean I had accepted that ring? Don't know.) I took other one in hand and came to the co-worker and narrated her the incident of 2-rings with doubt that are these rings for me or someone else and she was startled.... Ye Dusra Kaun hai....Dusri wali ring kisne rakhi... (who kept the second ring) ?!!! I burst into laughter..... I laughed so much that tears fell down from my eyes...
Okay so that's it... When I got up and was thinking about this dream... I realized it has a meaning... the future it was screaming... I told this dream to one of my bestie who called me and she too had same feeling... "that's good sign...". Folks... I had my first job offer within 48 hours when I decided to go for job interviews.... 48 hours only.... Off course, it was not something that I wished to do... I just kept it as my Plan Z... the last option in worst worst worst case scenario. So around the time of this dream, I was in process of job interviews with 2 good organizations... After this dream, my heart knew the outcome... I would be getting 2 diamond rings... I will have to choose which one I am going to accept.
By the way.. now when I am going and attending job interviews, it has given me so much  confidence... Refreshed few things... few tutorials, few videos and I am rocking in all the interviews... Even if somewhere I am not doing so good... it's like I am telling them... Oh so I am not as per your requirements, right... I don't fit in here and like we are not made for each other.... everything is easy... Seriously man? This is meeee... yes... this is myself... I am in so much demand? What I was doing? This was so easy... Once again I realized the same thing... The problems I had before taking "that big decision" were more than the problems I had after... yes... once again... you only think bad things and fear before crossing the bridge... But once you cross that bridge... you realize... there's nothing to fear... Everything is easy... God takes care of everything you know... So, now my goal was to get 10 job offers... Off course I understand, it is not possible in a month so I am not going to write in my monthly goals... But in couple of months may be... Yes... and I was just fascinated with this idea of 10 job offers in hand...
Me : Baby listen for a minute... You will take 10 offers... and then you will not go there.... does that not mean that you are deceiving them? Those organizations will be relying on you....They will plan accordingly and you will ditch them? Does that suit you? Is that you?
Myself : No...But I want to prove myself...
Me: To whom?
Myself : Umm....
Me: Is it required?
Myself: Umm....
Me : Then?
Myself : Hmm.... Right....That's valid point... But I wish to get 10 offers...
Me : What for?
Myself : I don't know...Okay... point understood... But then I will buy 10 diamond rings.... Is that fine?
Me : :)

To buy one diamond ring, I had to start Kitty in ORRA for a year. I am calculating, how many years and money I will have to save to buy 10 diamond rings... :)

PS: At the time of publishing this post, I needed only 3 diamond rings to complete my wish... Actually, I could have got all the 10 easily within that month but then I stopped in between realizing the un-necessity of it...

Mai Zinda Hu Lekin...

Mai Zinda Hu Lekin... Kaha Zindagi hai.... -- When you are alive but there is no life in your eyes...


Sometimes I am just trusting wrong people may be... who... Anyway, my mistake...
While I am mourning over something and I can't write anything... But I don't want to leave blog alone. I am just going to publish posts in the drafts from last couple of months... which may or may not be relevant now...

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Dil Dil Dhak Dhak... Dhak Dhak Dil Dil.... Abse kabtak... kabse Abtak...

Woke up with a dream.... Today's day  had to start with lovely dream....But not feeling happy...It was not happy ending dream.... Dear God... what?
By the way I am missing some music in this movie very much and I want to use the music in something that I am creating... It is a music in the movie which is theme of say journey of searching him/her... that music... I thought it will be in this song Muze Kuch Kahna hai.... or Jabse dekha hai Tere... But couldn't find it...


Search is on... Just few hours left and have lots of lots of things to do...
Good Morning World.... Happy Sunday.... 

We don't say Good Bye

Everyone has to deal with this dilemma many times in the life... You want something and something which you know you can't get together.... and then when you are enjoying one of the something, you can't actually enjoy it since you want another of something too... :)

As children, we might want to play all the time but we also want to have good grades.... Then it will start with education itself... If you want to go for higher studies, you might have to leave your friends and parents safe home... When comes to earning, you might have to try your luck in your dream city, leaving your own city and own people.... When you are in love... well actually married.... you miss your parents... (I am obviously writing for woman) you want your beloved and your parents together but obviously when you go to visit parents, you have to miss your husband may be... When you want to spend time with your family and kids, you might want to stay away from them for longer duration for your work needs... But to make their future secure, you have to stay away from them earning..

Oh God... sometimes I just feel why I am thinking and writing whole drama...  Just view the songs and that's it....


Saturday, September 9, 2017

The Final Countdown

Huhu...  Aah.....

Alright.... I think this is third time on this blog... I am posting this song... And this time.... it's not just the sixth sense or gut feeling..... It is the fact....


Ship is safe in harbor... But it's not meant for harbor. It needs to sail in open sea.... And anyway, everyone is alone in the end.... We need to do this journey all alone... People come and go.... Life moves on....

Friday, September 8, 2017

Aye Jaate Hue Lamho.... Jara Thahro Jara Thahro




   To chalu.... To chalu...

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Good Morning Sunshine

When it's weekend and even in songs you don't want to say this... Good Morning Sunshine...

Things to do... Chores to finish... Tasks to do... Shopping to do... People to meet...
And you are just not ready to getup and get out of your bed...
Naaah.... I am not getting up and doing anything... I think I am sick...I need to take rest.. :)

Good Morning World... Have a great and Happening weekend... Get out of your bed and Enjoy...

Friday, September 1, 2017

Muskurata hua Mera Yaar...

Since I wrote about brother in last post... Here is a song that he made me listen so many times in the morning in our old golden bachelor days....



Huhu.... I really love playing guitar... I am definitely going to learn it and play it one day...
Muskurata hua Mera Yaar... Mera Yaar....Mera Yaar... 

Nobody loves me and Dosa....

It was long weekend. Hence, chores, tasks and rest was done by the family members. There was a reason for celebration in family hence few guests were also gathered. Since the Ganpati festival is going on there was suggestion to see all the nearby public Ganapati celebrations. Obviously, I too had to go. I was not in very much good mood but had to accompany. Basically I was just a driver along with other few in family including my younger brother. We generally would be outside only and didn't visit those temples always since we didn't want to park our vehicles.
I was really bored and well hungry too. At one place I saw few food stalls at roadside and suddenly a Dosa center caught my attention. I had Dosa craving strongly. Yes... that's what I needed to make my mood good again. When our family members went inside to see the Ganpatiji , decorations and the scene I asked my younger brother that we will go and have Dosa in the time our family members come outside. It was just a Bhai-Bahan treat that we would do in our old golden bachelor days, all I wanted. But he simply rejected my proposal.

I was hurt inside. It's not like I can't go and have it alone. Rather, I go alone all the time and eat whatever I want. I am famous at my workplace for eating alone and not sharing food. But sometimes, I feel that I need some pampering. I thought younger brother would understand this. But it seems he didn't. My bad mood again went on to worse. My heart has started that "Nobody loves me.... Nobody cares for me" drama in my mind. I stayed calm though and we went on with our driving jobs.

I had almost finished with all household chores in the night and was trying to make my baby sleep in the bedroom when there was knock on the door. I saw he was my younger brother. He said, shut the door properly. I stared at him since I didn't understand his advice. But before I speak anything, he handed over a parcel to me and went. I opened and saw... it was hot Dosa... from a good restaurant. Oh my God... I mean... Seriously... I am just... stupid... I just went on to conclusion of that Nobody loves me... :)
Yes... I know... everybody loves me... actually, that's what people call me....with love...

So, that night was to Bhai-Bahan as always.... We may not show it everyday... But love is always there... deep down the heart... 

Falling off....


What this leaf would be feeling while falling from the tree where it grew for years...? JagdishChandra Bose had proved that trees has emotions..I mean that's what I had read. But do that leaf have emotions or feelings? What if leaf is feeling to cry out loudly? Can a leaf cry? 

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Tu Mera Dil - You are Apple of my Eye

Bus yahi soch kar Raaton Ko Mai nahi sota.....

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Ghadi bhar ka hai Khel Sara ... Just a matter of time...

I was at holy place where I heard some ticking sound from the bell. There was no reason of that sound. I observed and realized.... it was hint for me may be... Time is ticking...and this came to my mind... Ghadi bhar ka hai Khel Sara...
Seriously, I can think of anything, anywhere, anytime...

Bechain Mai Hu... Bekrar Mai Hu Na...

Apne to saare is kinare rah gaye...
Tanha chala jo Us paar... Mai hu naa...

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Ganeshotsav and Dance Workout

I live in most happening area of the city. All the festivals are celebrated grandly in neighborhood. Ganeshotsav has started yesterday and this place has just became very rocking place once again. Since it has many Ganesh Mandaps all around, it is just crowded 24-hours in these 10 days tenure. Because of all those stalls playing music loudly, it becomes lively place all the time. 
Alright, now cut to my life... Last few days I was not able to take care of myself due to the various issues. Result : I am suffering from hairfall, I have got pimples over all over the face and my tummy has increased. I need to take care of myself now.  I have stopped exercising altogether.  Even drinking water was cut-short. Obviously, problems issues in life are still there and I don't know how I am going to handle all these things. But thing is I have made peace with me. So, whatever happens I am going to face it with myself happily. I am going to re-begin mission Healthy Fit Me now. Our special days have ended, so again I can eat veggies and fruits to have healthy diet. Now, I have good reason for workout. This music playing is so inspiring that I couldn't stop myself from dancing. Got an idea that I will use this as opportunity and will do dance workout when this music is being played. Seriously, hours of workout which will give happiness only... Alright, do you think I can make any difference in 10 days? Okay, lets challenge... Today was second day of Ganeshotsav... Will do dance workout, all healthy eating and all our healthy things for next 10 days... and will see how much it affects... What says? Alright, done... I have this gut-feeling that my life is going to change for something better and I will be facing a major change in life. So, why don't I face the change with fitter and more beautiful version of myself? Huhu... 
Let's not stress about anything... Anyway, why should be sad by keep thinking of people who are not part of life anyway... Most of the people just use you for their entertainment.... It's only us who suffer in the end...Why give that chance to anybody? So why not enjoy ourselves...Enjoy our own company....You know, in the we all end up alone... lonely.... We come in the world lonely.... and we have to die lonely... I am not remembering the song but it has this lyrics... To Hum Gaaye kyu nahi... Hum nache kyu nahi... 
Okay so I am done with my today's dance workout... More tomorrow... 

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Random Thoughts

I look at birds on the tree, as I sip through my tea-mug... I feel I have became more like birds.... There is just uncertainty about everything...They don't store their food for tomorrow. They just live this moment...Now... When Tomorrow becomes Today, they again leave home in search of food... They are not sure about anything in future... This branch or may be this tree itself where they have their home will be there or not. They are still happy... I mean that's what I decipher. Actually we all should be like this. We don't know what's going to happen next moment. We just waste our life worrying, over thinking, hating, getting angry, holding grudges..... And in the end...that movie dream sequence which is played in your brain in last 1 n half minute of death.... That movie should be of happy Moments...loved ones.... You get to choose what you want in that movie.... Love deeply and it will be there...well, I guess I am derailing from my own thoughts now. Better will get up...tea is almost cold...
Tea.... I am not habitual to it... But when I drink I WANT it the best...And this tea is after a complete fasting yesterday... So kind of deserve this blog post while relaxed tea...
 BTW, I have many posts lined up in my drafts already... The thing I am waiting for is trigger for all my posts publishing. But seems it's not going to happen anytime soon so till the time I am just writing feelings, posts and saving them... May be will publish sometime...
 Or may be not.... God knows... 
Happy Weekend World...
 I Have lots of things to do... You enjoy the life till the time.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Tere Bin Jina Nahi....

Music

Once again I have created a huge playlist in my mobile phone and now more than myself, my son is listening to them. I just smile when he wants to listen Himesh's songs again and again. And he asks me the meaning of words... the lyrics too... Anyway, my son's day is starting with songs in my phone and when I am rocking him to sleep in the night, again he needs songs in background. Then my own personal time to listen those... So music is at home now most of the time...
At work I have got a cabin.. well not exact cabin but cabin like space... all my own... see again I am taking it in positive way and giving it my own touch, name... I remembered that one of my project managers would start his work day by playing sarangi music in his cabin. So when nobody is around, I play my music in my cabin... Seriously, when one of the co-workers who thinks me as "Aunty type-s" came to my space and he listened "Sexy Eyes" playing, he actually checked his phone feeling that his phone is playing that song. :) Great was reaction on his face when he realized that was me... So even though my radio is off from some time now, but music is in life...



I mean seriously? In day time, sexy eyes and past midnight crying eyes - Bheegi nahi Aankhein...???

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

How do you celebrate New Beginnings?

I have a bestie who would cut her hair short.... Boy cut... eachtime....whenever she changed jobs.... That was her way to welcome new jobs.... Now she has waist length hair and time for her boy cut again.... New Beginnings.... New look.... Nice concept..... But long hair.... :(

Reason

Huhu.... Okkay...

The Melting Words

Oh my God... just before few hours I posted about Rahul Kaushik.... and now his post... I mean... is he writing for me? Now I am seriously having some feeling that I don't understand.... Is this something like that happened in "Bade Acche Lagte Hai...". There was a time years ago, I wouldn't miss that show because, by some co-incidence, it would show those things which would happen in my life... same time... Well, obviously this happened for some time only... But at that time, it was like... is this my life story someone watching and writing here... even the people around me have experienced that connection....
Anyway, so am I hurting someone? No... please.... I don't want to hurt anyone but how would I know... and how do I trust when the experiences that I had tell another story.... 

Don't waste New Beginnings with Kindness on Haters....

Murder in a Minute and Rahul Kaushik...
What are these writers.... Oh My God...

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Dua - The Prayer

Okay.... difficult song to sing....  Need to practice more..



By the way, what is this video... Seems scenes from some serial... But why she is doing suicide... Oh God... not again... recently someone told me how suicide is not solution of the problems and blah blah... Comeon yaar, you are saying all this to me....??? The most lively person....!!! The most positive person..... who sees positive thing in worstestestest possible situation......!!! I know this yaar... and this is what I explain to the negative people who I think need help. Anyway, my stomach is growling now... I am fasting today and stomach is already asking for fuel. God... please... You know I am fasting to prove myself that I can fast... ( though I know I can't).  Our special days have started where we do spend most of the time in religious activities, mediation and fasting. My parents fast for all the 9 days.... since years... and I am such a shame to them that even if I eat 2-3 portions less than regular in office, I am about to collapse... :) What do I do... body structure may be... But anyway... today I am fasting... nomatter what... Oh God... its only 9 hours past and minimum of total 29 hours from now are remaining to finish this one day fast.... Okay fine.. I will keep sleeping all day... nooo... I can't do that... I need to go to temple and do the things and worships and all... even these household chores... and even this thing that I am hating to do.... God... please give me strength to stay hungry without any issue... Let me be able to do this atleast one day...

Maturity and Smile comes with price tag of tears


Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Goals for the Month - August 2017

I know, I have not posted goals of this month yet and you might be waiting. But I am waiting for something which will change my goals tremendously. Hence, give me a couple of days time and I will pen down them as per the situation.
Meanwhile, Happy Independence Day, India.... 

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Bachenge to Aur Bhi Ladenge…

Its amazing how life has become like the life of Jethalal in Tarak Mehta ka Ulta Chashma…. One problem is solved… another problem enters from the door….
When I was flying in the sky freely and winning all over…. Something came up to cut my wings….
Seriously… the same reason….the reason for my downfall…. Now I am not going to make this reason for my bad days and bad time…


I am a warrior and will fight till…. I myself have to become my own Krishna and guide the Arjun in myself with the BhagvadGeeta... Keep going baby ..



 I am amazed though… how someone who had loved you once, can hurt you, injure you…  Can we call it as love? Was it love at all? any time?

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Kabhi Tum nahi the, kabhi Hum nahi the...


Saturday, August 5, 2017

Just like that.....

Sitting at window, looking at moon.... Restless... and again without any reason....
Everything happens for a reason, I do strongly believe....
But this heart don't understand.... how do I now live....
Nothing has happened.... still tears fall down...
What stupid heart wishes for, will I get that crown....


Friday, August 4, 2017

Nayi hai Mazilein... Naye hai Raastein....


Tu Mere Saath Saath Aasmaan se aage chal... Tuze pukaarta hai Tera Aane wala Kal...
Nayi hai Manzilein... Naye hai Raastein.... Naya Naya Safar hai Tere waastein....



HuHun... 

Bin Tere

 I was listening to Aryans'  'Ye Hawa kahti hai Kya' while working. My cubiclemates call me headphones queen who sing while working and many memes have been shared with me for this. So from this song the catchy line - Bin Tere Mai kaise Ji sakunga... Tera Pyaar kab mai pa sakunga was the one I was repeating all day. Listening to this Bin Tere lines, one of my coworkers shared this video with me to check another Bin Tere version saying to change me the song that I was singing ( Yes, one of my coworkers do share songs with me to hear those songs in my voice... cool and crazy, isn't it.)... and that was it...



So beautifully sung by this kid that I don't have words... I was so emotional listening to this, I just decided, I am not going to listen any and means any of sad love songs now...

My experience says that if someone is making you cry, time to part from those people is near... But what if someone is going away and that's why you are crying.... Happens all the time, right?

PS:  Well, I had started writing this post couple of days back... and guess what, I am in totally opposite mood at this moment... Actually, what songs make you feel is totally on our mood... Now, Some time back on my loop continuously was playing Tere Bina from Himesh... And then I got some kind of Good News which made me happy... Well, Sad version Tere Bina which I was humming immediately became into a rocking pop number... So, I am definitely going to listen all the songs... no ban on love songs too... :) 

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Goals for the Month - July 2017 - Month end Review

One day is pending to end July but I will be busy later so posting my month end review. You can find my July month goals here.

  • Record  -- Not done. Though I am singing various songs myself... not recorded. 0% Failed.

  • Salon and Spa --Seriously a very little of this budget is spent. I didn't had mood to do anything you know. Well, not found anything to finance this yet. 30% Failed.

  • Weekends -- Monsoon picnic with family done on a weekend this month. And since it was July Income Tax Return month, I was really busy meeting with clients and doing stuffs on weekends. So, weekends well spent. 80% Okay. 

  • Lunch/ Dinner Date : 6 Lunch/Dinner dates - 150% done. My son too is used to hoteling now. When I do take him for long rides in the evening, he will just see some restaurant and will ask for dinner and then we actually go there... Mother - Son duo...eating happily ....in the pajamas...Waiters are used to see this scene now... :) Anyway, then I did take myself to a very expensive star hotel that I have never been into and got myself good coffee and specially made customized snacks for myself... All alone... and happy... It was celebration that I did for farewell of that long time customer whom I referred in the goals that is leaving. So the last full n final payment was good amount so I just took a chance to celebrate a bit. I badly needed this coffee break in these days. 
  • Read and Review -- 2 book reviews... (approved). -- No -- 0% Failed.

  • Writing: 0% Failed completely.
  • Shopping : No shopping, not even anklet... I don't need anklet anymore and I already have which I need so no shopping. Though I am creating a list of shopping which I will be doing after "I get something good reason in life for shopping". 100% Done
  • Cooking :  Okay... it was okay... more on this section in next post may be...60% Okay..


  • Health :
  • Diet --  So healthy diet... 2 salads, one fruit, one glass milk daily minimum... milk obviously not for all days* and adjust dinner time... I am feeling hungry late in the night... -- This was seriously impacted. I have started with hair fall and then these pimples on my face... Something big has hit my diet or may be its just stress that I don't have ;) -- 0% Failed.

  • Drinking 5 liters of Water daily -- This also went for a toss... I am not even drinking 2 liters these days.. 0% Failed.

  • Drinking Milk Daily -- 40%. Okay
    • Walking 30 minutes --  Ahha... I got a very good reason for this and I am glad about it. So, this is going good. 80% Done.
      •  
    • Plank -- 20 days minimum. - 40%. Alright.


    • Work -- Okay... so this was the client that I was talking about. That was good business. I did bid farewell in very good manner to the customer. Anyway, I haven't found anything to replace this income yet. Search is on. 10%

    • PDUs-- Just see this image... Do I still need to say anything....
    • Though not planned, I happened to earn them this month as well and see this is the result... I have actually earned all the PDUs I need to renew my PMP credentials which is due in 2.5 years.... Dear God, please make other things as well so effortless for me... This was leisure activity... 1000%

    • Tax planning -- Doing and going good. 90%.
    • Chanting 108 mantras for 20 days -- Done -- 100% But as written earlier, not focused. 
    • Car Driving -- 0%. Failed. I didn't even drive to Monsoon picnic this month. Oh that was different experience altogether.

    • Hobby : 0% Failed.

    Its already 4.30 am in the clock and I haven't slept yet. Not writing anything... just be happy until my next post. 

    Pahchaan - The Identity

    Oh yes by the way, music has also left me alone these days...  My music mobile has became dead without any reason and the new mobile's headsets are not working for some reason... Yes... have to send it to customer care center.. but that's not priority at this moment so may be later... But offcourse, I am not leaving music alone... My heart keeps singing...no matter what....

    Itne Chehron me Apne Chehre ki Pehchaan...
    Bade Bade Naamon me Apna bhi Naamonishaan...




    Laagli Vaat... Laagli Vaat...

    Life Update : Life has some unexpected twists and turns and am figuring the best way out of it. 
    I went to a place and after sometime was surprised to see one of my besties there. I had talked to her on phone previous night and she had suggested me to visit the place. It was holy place and we were not allowed to talk. But I realized she had planned all this setup to talk to me in person. When there is will, there is way. We stole few minutes from the world to have a quick chat. After some of my updates she was, "Vow Yaar... Teri to har taraf se Vaat lag gai hai...!!! " (Rough translation : your whole life has become miserable) . I was just SO motivated with these words... And then we sang the song... "Laagli Vaat... Laagli Vaat....". I am so lucky to have such friends... who know how to handle me... Seriously... It will be so much fun to get life back on the boring track now...  

    Recently, I met a guy… Venu… (I know Maharashtrian reaction on this. I myself have a friend Venu who is girl… But anyway, he is from Hyderabad and hence I got to know that Venu is name of boy too).  He said, "You know what, you should be doing 'this'...". (And I was like… WHAT? Oh.My.God. This is exactly what my heart wants me to do… How come he knows this…He don’t even know me… We were talking just for few minutes…. Is he like too cute and understanding or am I communicating too frankly with him? I don't know...) Whatever… so I was happy to listen from a stranger about what I should do, exactly the way I wish.. It felt like a sign.. God is saying to pursue my wish…my dream... Yes Dear God… definitely… but what about now….this moment.... What if Plan A is taking too long to work… I know…it won’t but just consider worst case scenarios…. I am not considering Plan C and Plan D yet in the calculations… So I have to work on Plan B which I seriously don’t wish to do… but have to… 

    Saturday, July 29, 2017

    Thank You God... I know, it was You...

    I strongly believe this... Always... there is someone... always... .. 


    Stay Connected…. With yourself….

    As you might have observed in my monthly goals, I do few religious activities daily. Last few weeks…though I was doing them regularly, I was not feeling that "special feeling" in me. I was feeling that something is missing... It was just like something I am doing without any feeling. I am looking at God's idol but we are not connected... There was no communication....  I was realizing this and it was hurting a lot. I was not connected to God... I was not connected to myself... and I don't know why..

    Okay, not everybody will get this "Connecting with God or connecting with your inner-self" point. So, this happens with relationships as well…. You are putting in more than yourself in relationship, in building it…nurturing it... you lose yourself in the whole process and if still there is no desired response… you loose interest… and then you just do things without heart…. Actually relationship dies after some time…We see so many couples around us like this... just dragging the dead relationship....
      It happens with work as well… You do your job but if you don’t love what you do...you are living just “fakt rakane divasache bharto” and “patya takto” types work-life. 
      It happens with our own self as well…If I don't love myself, if I am not with my own self...I am basically hating myself... If my brain and heart are not in sync, I am not trying to fulfill my dreams, I am hating myself... My experience is when you are not with yourself and you are not behaving like your own self.. you loose everything..... But once you connect to your own inner-self... you are unstoppable... you win everything....The process of connecting with ourselves do take time... but its long lasting.... fulfilling... enriching...

    You know what, when you are not connected with yourself, all you feel is sad, alone and you wait for someone, you need someone else to show you your worth... to motivate you may be... .. you see like your heart will sing the Total eclipse of the heart.... And I need you more than ever.... But when you get connected with yourself... you are the super power... you don't need anyone... you will sing to yourself.... I am there for you.... Mai Hu Naa...  Koi mushkil, koi pareshani aaye, Muzse kaho... Tumhein lage kuch theek nahin Halaat, Mujhse kaho.... Koi ho Tamanna ya ho Koi Aarzu,  Rehna kabhi na Bekaraar.... Mai Hu Naa....
     Seriously, trust me when you SHOUT these lines inside your helmet and the bike-rider  next to you looks you strangely, you just shrug it off and don't care... Man... you have connected.. well connected with yourself... and to h*** with this world... 

    Dear God... thanks for staying by me... even when I am not trusting... not connecting...  I know, we will connect soon... 


    Sunday, July 16, 2017



    Wednesday, July 12, 2017

    Deewana Tera Tuzehi Bulaaye....



    Monday, July 10, 2017

    In Dino


    In Dinon... Dil Mera Muzse hai kah raha....
    Tu.... Khwaab Sajaa.... Tu.... Ji le Jaraa....



    Thanks for Everything... God....

    Sunday, July 9, 2017

    Pahli Baar....Aankhari Baar....

    I know, I am posting this song again in this blog. Last time it was about my coworker who had fallen in love for a girl and would share those cute things with me.
    Today... its me posting this... :) Nooooo.... just now it came on radio... that's it... nothing else... :) I am not giving Priyanka Chopra's version... I am still in love with Suresh Wadkar's version... the silent one...



    Thode bheege bheege se thode num hai Hum...
    Kal se soye hue bhi to kam hai Hum....
    Dil ne kaise harkat ki hai....
    Pahliiii baaar....Mohabbbaat ki hai...
    Aankhari baaaaar Mohabbbaat ki hai....

    Remembered....

    Other day, rather night I was at work doing my job and already late for home.  One young handsome man entered. He was wearing loose t-shirt and shorts...somewhat 'vacation mood' look. On seeing him, I suddenly felt 'deja vu'. I had seen the boy somewhere and I didn't remember where. I was stressing my brain so much, I forgot that I was actually in middle of a conversation with someone else. Oh God, the other person must have felt that I am checking out the young handsome cool dude. With embarrassing  awkwardness I continued my conversation. The person was talking to the boss and though they both were communicating in English, I recollected that the boy was Marathi. He left soon with boss.  I told my mother the incident and asked if she remember any of my friends or colleagues with such description. Till this point I had recollected that he had worked as actor. But I couldn't recollect him.

    Present:
    I was going through newspaper today when a photo on the first page of films section caught my attention and I just remembered. Eureka... Eureka.... It was image of a bald man, not so handsome... I went to my mother and asked, "if this person would have hair on his head, do you think you know him?" My mother saw photo and said, yes, He is "Saurabh Gokhale". Oh.My.God. I got him now... that night, he was Saurabh Gokhle in the shorts.... He is Marathi actor by profession.

    Happens all the time.... I have worked in so many fields... and with so many people that I keep on forgetting people... It's my mother who most of the time reminds me, "that boy is from your that diploma course..... Okay, that person we met.... you worked with that person in that library in that summer.... and so on.... " Thanks mother for reminding.... You know... my own life theory that I keep writing here....of "People come and go...Life moves on" actually had came from so many experiences...

    Anyway, so he has just maintained himself very well... he is not young boy... I mean off course not young as me... he is quite older than me... Similar incident had happened in my office once when someone came  to see the office space for rent and that time the person and I, we both had identified each other and we talked and all... Oh my bestie in office... I am so missing you now... Whom with I gossip about this now...

    Goals for the Month - July 2017

    Alright, its already 2 am in the clock but I am not sleepy at all. Cool songs are going on radio and it's perfect time to jot down the goals.

    I am in happy mood thanks to these cool songs and hence going to make happiness first priority on my monthly goals...

    • Record  -- This was done last month without any plan and it was good. So this time planning for it. This time that will be for myself... I love myself you know... I am dating myself.... I take myself out for lunch/dinner/tea/snacks/coffee and outing so... I deserve a song for myself this time.... :)

    • Leisure -- Stress will be allover this month... Well, it will trouble me only if I mind... Let's just laugh out the things....
    • Salon and Spa --Well, salon budget is going to blow this month I guess... At the time of writing this goals, I have already visited salon several times in this month. Today also I had a "look good for" visit. God, please take care of these expenses... Salon prices are going to be up because of GST. I need to find some new gig to finance salon expenses now.

    • Weekends -- One monsoon picnic is planned this month with family... I had already bought tickets of the resort... I plan to drive. If possible, one solo trip as well... which seems impossible this month given my weekends are busy with work. I was super busy today and 3 meetings lined up already for tomorrow.

    • Lunch/ Dinner Date : I will have minimum of 6 Lunch/dinner/snacks dates with myself. Seriously this is badly needed.
     
    • Read and Review -- This takes time process wise so now after bit experience I need to estimate this carefully. Now I know, it is going to take time anyhow so will plan accordingly. 2 book reviews... (approved).

    • Writing: I am again making writing as my priority. Its such a stress buster. I will be spending much time reading+writing. I want to write whatever I have in my drafts, bookmarks and mind since long. Let the posts be flooded to my technical blog. Minimum 5 posts to technical blog after today and a full length technical article. Six months review for annual goals as well... 

    • Shopping : No shopping for myself... only essential things for home and son will be bought this month. Wait... my anklet is pending... Okay fine... anklet shopping.

    • Cooking :  Kids friendly cooking. At the evening time, if I get call, my coworkers know... caller would be my son and will ask for some food item.... Mother... I love you so much... I love Jilebis too... I love gulab jamuns too...kaju katli... and what not... and obviously like any good mother I prefer only my cooked food for him... so I make jilebis, gulab jamuns etc for him. He has seen my chocolates mould and now keeps asking me to make chocolates... No baby... I am not gonna fall for this...you are not getting chocolates...


    • Health :
    • Diet -- I am having "feeling" that my healthy diet has derailed... and this might affect my hair...I don't want hair fall now... So healthy diet... 2 salads, one fruit, one glass milk daily minimum... milk obviously not for all days* and adjust dinner time... I am feeling hungry late in the night... (At the time of writing this also I am feeling too hungry now... what do I eat now...)

    • Drinking 5 liters of Water daily -- Continue with this.

    • Drinking Milk Daily -- Continue with this.
      • Walking 30 minutes --  Continue with this.
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      • Plank -- 20 days minimum.


      • Work -- I have a client who is leaving this month forever. It was long association and good money too. It won't be there now. So, need to find something else to fill up that space. WORK  this on PRIORITY. Have few ideas... have to figure out and work accordingly to get success.


      • PDUs-- I am not planning for any of it actually this month. So, even couple of PDUs will be okay for this month. That I can actually get by attending chapter's meeting and business lunch/dinner whatever is planned for this month.

      • Tax planning -- ELSS, automatic payments, income tax return.

      • Chanting 108 mantras for 20 days -- This is going okay these days so I think I will be able to achieve this easily.

      • Car Driving -- Get servicing done and continue with practice. Drive to Monson trip.

      • Hobby : Create something cool

      At the time of writing these goals I am actually little (very little) bit worried but confident too. I am not fearing even for a second. I know, God is with me.. I know, we will do it. I think I am getting close to what I want.... how part of it... I was figuring out... I think clouds are clearing now... I am able to see the sunshine... Again, it's a risk... but that's how we enjoy our life, right? by risking everything... Let's see what happens... I know, whatever God does, its all for good in the end.
       

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