Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Shhh..... My Heart will Listen....

Good Memories... Lovely ones... You want to cherish them forever...

May be you know and understand your loved one now more than in the days you met initially... and the love has just blossomed... But still you are more in love with that person when your love was in initial phases... May be your loved one would be sending you flowers regularly, but still you have preserved the first rose he had gifted... May be your loved one would be caring for you, doing all household chores for you when you are not able to do them now, may be taking care of your kids,  but still when you look into the eyes, you may see the person with "Usne Baat ki kuch aise dhang se" feeling...the initial days when you were dating....the "first love" feeling. But they don't let the other person know all that. They keep on screaming on them, getting angry over little things, fighting with them.... sometimes may be without reason... and they understand it deep in heart.

Actually, these people are bit secretive... They won't accept it to themselves easily... The person will be loving the loved one more and vice a versa but they won't let the person know "how much" they love... Its always... I Love You More than You Love Me.... But they won't accept it....
May be there is a fear....may be the fear of loss...  If they accept it to themselves, it will all be gone away....



Like this song above... This is not the song my heart or deeper insider heart is singing right now... but just my inner heart don't want it to let even my heart know, so this is the cover...

I was wondering... if my baby would be understanding me... and my deep emotions... 

Friday, August 16, 2013

My First Car

After doctor has advised me not to travel by 2-wheeler or autorikshaw, here comes my first car.



The expenses are too much high at this point and definitely going to increase in near future... Yet, I would just say, this purchase was only after full research and considering various options and requirements... I found this THE BEST!

Monday, August 12, 2013

Sensitive..... Myself....

I am now one step ahead through the phase of all confusion, happiness, sadness and all mixed emotions after knowing I am pregnant. Now that I have accepted the fact there will be changes in my body, in my life and with my emotions too... I never thought of I would become so much emotional.

Though its true, in this phase, at one moment I am just angry with whole world or more correctly saying angry with myself (for may be I am not able to do the things as previously) and at other I am on top of the world.... At one moment I am excited about eating something but the next moment I am sad on myself since I am not even able to bear the smell of it. At one moment, I am angry with my near and dear ones because, they don't understand how I am feeling.... (: ( )  and I can't explain.

But myself and crying.... Impossible... But this is happening.
It was first time noticed when I received this video in my whatsapp and I actually cried after seeing it.




I mean, yes, its touching but I am crying to see this.... This is too much.. I know, it's just an act performed but still.. So I was mad at myself because of this only.
Wait, but this was just beginning... Next day while watching the film 'My Name is Khan', I teared down again. God... No... I have seen this film many-times before and I had never cried... whats now all this going on... I don't want to cry on such stupid things.... whats happening to me... I know I am very Rough and Tough and now what all girly things like crying are happening... Somebody had told me that yes, while nature is converting you in a mother, nature first makes you sensitive... but this is too much... Is this side effect of the medicines I am taking...?


 

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