Saturday, April 29, 2017

Good Morning Sunshine...

Such a lovely dream... As stated earlier, my dreams are full of drama... It was having a young couple who were shooting for a lovestory movie (love, romance), son, parents (family), coworkers and neighbors (drama).... And Off course myself...
Oh my God... I was actually... It was so lovely... the understanding that we didn't had to speak anything... It was comparison sort of thing may be...  The young heroin who was shooting for that movie, was my neighbor and would come and tell me her feelings about the hero... I was her Love Guru sort of thing in the dream...  I would suggest her somethings... and... oh my God... It was so lovely... that I actually slept again after waking up to continue it and oh God... I was too late to wake up... Oh no... I don't want real life drama now...all my morning tasks are pending...  But anyway, it was so good.. Sometimes you just don't have to speak your feelings to the person you are close to... They just understand it... and no other people understand the "logic" behind it... :)
By the way, sometime back, I had read in some motivational book that the way you save someone's phone number in your mobile has its impact in your life... You know, something like whole world and stars make it happen or something.... So, the way I saved somebody's number in my cell had actually made him that in my dream... :) Vow.. so nice...

Today morning would had to be like this... It was meant to be lovely dream... And in my dreams, I have came to you a thousand times...In my dreams I have cared for you a thousand times...I many times see you pass my door..... Hellooo.... It's me you looking for.... I can see it in your eyes... I can see it in your smile..

Good Morning World... I am not sure, when will be I able to post my next post on this blog now... Till the time, Love your Loved Ones, Express Your Love,  Life is very short, don't waste it on hate and ego and anger and stupid fights....Have a Lovely Time...

Friday, April 28, 2017

Aaj Mai Khush Hu, lo Tum hi bolo Mai hu Khush kyu

I am feeling just happy today and I don't even know the reason... I mean not any specific reason... I am feeling very relaxed... lighter... like a free bird... not actually free bird... don't know.. and I am just happy... I don't have the words for my feeling yaar... I was chatting the same with my colleague too.. I am actually hungry but I am feeling so good that I am not going to get up from my bed to even get some food or drink milk and he was like just think that you had your dinner and you will feel full. Seriously, I meet with all crazy people...Anyway, I just want to live this moment. I don't know actually the reason of this "feel good" feeling. May be because I will see my son tomorrow. He was not with me for this whole week.... or may be I am all set for vacation mood ...but no that may not be the reason because I have started missing everything already... You know that feeling when you just leave your special someone and just turn and you already start missing them...Same feeling for work may be...I actually stayed up late today at work finishing some tasks that I actually could have postponed....  or may be the fact that I was appreciated for something good at my workplace in a way that I actually wanted ... well not exactly the same way but dont know... or may be ...someone actually did care for me... oh... I don't know...

Okay, now will you please come down to earth from your dreamy land? First, whenever you feel such happy, you get so much pain later so no... and as per historical data... the happy feeling you are having today will be just reversed by the same people you are feeling happy because of. So, hold on. People never understand feelings.... so never show them to anyone.

Come on ... I am going for another life risking adventure tomorrow and you don't know future.. At least let me enjoy today...

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Hey, I had never seen video for this song earlier.. though I used listen/sing it a lot. Jaicky Shroff is really good in few movies... I really liked him in that one with Kajol...

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Baat bane to thik varna Zid pe Adiyo na...

I was listening to the "Love is waste of Time" playlist on gaana.com, couple of days ago and I stopped by this song. I remembered when this song was released I liked the concept of "Never ever love any one" but this line I disliked.. It was "Baat bane to thik varna zid pe adiyo na". That time, I was like, why not? If something is not happening, we should not just leave it like a loser. We should be like stubborn, should chase it till we get success. Off course, I was teenager, not matured.
Well, video also was not appropriate to watch that age so I never saw this song again.



After so many years, when I listen this song I understand it now. It's about love. You can't force someone to love you. You may be loving someone to the moon and back but it doesn't mean the other person should love you the same way. You just can't force it to someone. You can't change anyone's feelings. Before taking major decisions in life, my philosophy was this only. I may love someone by all my heart but if I don't get it back in return, I don't get that respect I deserve in return, I can do nothing about it. I am not chasing that person saying one day he will change. One day he will love me the way I do. Off course, one day he will.  I have seen many women who proudly tell that they got the respect they deserved after 30 years. Comeon, what's the use if someone value you  and your love after 30-40 years of living together. I don't know, may be this is my generation speaking this up. But yes, my generation too tries. It's not like that we don't try. We try too for years. But offcourse we can't wait for 30 years trying only. You should just let go of the thing, the person. You just cant force this thing called love and respect to anyone... and if you force... it doesn't last long.  :( May be my generation needs more expressing of love which earlier generation didn't need. We need may be acknowledging, appreciating on constant regular basis in relationships while this was not something which our mothers needed.  

Well, I don't know.... I am just writing this... and I don't have actually time to write or even think more about this or write about this. I am busy preparing for one important professional thing tomorrow. I just took a break and listened the playlist again on gaana.com and felt to share this. At this moment I am in the mood of "Love is waste of time... " and I know myself...  :)

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Happiness is sleeping for 2 weeks...

Happiness is as soon as you enter home after long tiring day, going to bed in your shoes.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Apni Kabhi to Kabhi Ajnabee....




 

Father-Daughter and Mother-Son Relationships....

After this morning's pigeon kid event, I was bit upset already and had nothing in mind. I had not even looked at my To-Do list single time. I was just doing the things without any heart. My son when got to know the incident, he was also emotional. We did spend today just together doing many things. It was like just two of us in the world. I took him to shopping as well. Did lots of shopping for him. How much I was emotional that can be guessed with the fact that I myself gave him a chocolate candy. He too was surprised.

Flashback : When I would come home from my college hostel for holiday, I would return to hostel in the morning. There was a superfast express train early in the morning which would take me to my destination in few hours. My father would wake up to drop me to the railway station. He would not speak anything but I knew his feeling. I would observe him. His eyes would be like:

Bus yahi soch ke raaton ko mai nahi sota...
Nind aai to tera khwaab chala aayega...
Fir subah jab khulengi aankhe meri...
Tu bhi subah ko sitare sa chala jaayega....

I have exact same feeling today... My son and I  were like...

Is ek pal to ji le jara... ye lamhe fir mile na mile...
Fir kya ho kya khabar, dekha hai kisne kal...
Aajka din rok le, fir ho na jaaye sahar...

Please God... give me strength... You know what we  mother-son wish and you know what is the best. Let me be ready for all the scenarios.
 

Healthy Eating and Healthy Life Style Challenge - Weekly Update

Alright, so eating part was good. I did well for clean eating but the workout part was failed totally... More than 5 days missed for sun salutation... However, I had started with the dance so I think that should be taken care of. After today's weight check, it's the same again... no loss, no gain...

I couldn't save it....

The saddest morning. I was sleeping when around 3.40am now I heard a strange voice.  I got up and went to source of sound - window. It was sound of pigeon kid. I can't forget the sight. There was a cat and the pigeon kid was in her mouth. Oh my God, oh my God, I took a container kept in window to shuussh cat but she jumped with pigeon in her mouth on the roof of different house and ran away. It was so quick. I couldn't save my pigeon kid. I saw it last time. It was his voice to struggle for his life. Why I didn't get up earlier? I could save it. That pigeon kid was having faith in me. It had that feeling that I would be saving it. God, if you didn't let me save it, why did you wake me up? To make me sad? You know, I can't forget this now for days. I understand now the disappearance of the first pigeon child. God, it was just a kid. You made me guilty of not being able to save its life. and how the hail that cat came here? How is it possible for a cat to climb this height? I know, I know... don't give me logical reasoning. I am really sorry beta... I am so so sorry... and I am feeling so so guilty... I am sorry... I couldn't save you....

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Meri Duniya me Aake...

Tum bin... Movie was good and whole album was my favorite... I have listened to it thousands of times may be...


By the way, this is something different style of Sonu Nigam.  

Dealing with Bad Guys

Since I already mentioned about "Bad Guys" in my last post, I thought to take this up. I always write here that "I am so lucky that I only meet good people wherever I go" . Yes, that's 100% correct. But in real world actually I had encountered bad people as well... just to get something good out of it too.... good lessons... or being stronger... So from the time I am sharing is my college time where I had actually with my gang of girls group did hit the guys who were teasing girls.... On road gathered so many people to beat someone. I have also did fights in the train with bad guys while doing "up-down" in trains and in buses.
Gradually, I become mature enough to understand when to ignore and when is the "real issue". Just this month, when I was filling fuel at fuel station, one boy did sing a song on "eyes" looking at me. I was fully covered in clothes and jacket and scarf and only eyes were visible. I chose to ignore. It happens many times. You need to ignore and at many times you just can't fight each time.

It is said that when you leave your safe home, you get into the real world, you have to face such situations and yes you have to. You need to learn to deal with it. In my initial stages of career I had a coworker who once misbehaved with me. I was younger and I complained regarding him in my office. After some verification, that person was fired from company for this reason. Later he met me personally requesting he had a family and home to feed and I should take my complaint back. Well, I couldn't do anything then. Next time such thing happened, I decided not to complain in the office and handled it my way. The result of this is the person and me have such an awkward relationship till date that even though I smile and talk to the coworker may be professionally on some issue, the person don't talk. I tried to forget but he is not ready to forget the incident and move on.
Then we had a senior member who would stare the breasts of girls while talking to them. We just used to become uncomfortable. Thankfully, I don't have to work with him much so it was just some times for me. But when asking how to deal with him to one of my colleague friend who had to extensively work with him, her response was "simply ignore. He stares at breasts unintentionally, unknowingly and innocently." Seriously? how can someone stare at women's breasts innocently? That was not just a look... that was stare... actual stare...
Anyway, in another incident, when I handled a misbehaving at workplace in my way, the person got furious...mixed of emotions may be...started ill-speaking about me. I cleared things with him directly on this as well. He is just confused person... At one time he will be speaking bad about me in public while at some times would act as silent lover kind of thing...Some times he would flirt, try to impress and he would use any cheesy lines...Your water bottle color is red, mine water bottle color is red... Color of love is red... I simply answer... "you know what, when I will slap you again, the color of your cheeks will also be red". I do compare him with my son so that he gets hint.
Anyway, so moral of the story, if you are a girl, you have to deal with "bad guys"... Learn self defense... I had learnt it... used it... Stick to your instinct... Your sixth sense is always right... Observe the people and things around you....Stay away if you sense so... Prevention is always better and worst case scenario you get into it, fight... just fight... raise your voice... Make a support group... At workplaces, there are so many committees for such things.. Each organization has a separate cell for this. Save that phone number/email address for worst nightmare. Talk... Talk to someone.. Never find yourself alone. Help is just around you.
 

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